dinsdag 24 juli 2012

MIRACLES HAPPEN


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SORRY
for not being here
but
Since I have my house
for my own now
because 
all my children
are having 
their own place now 
I needed time
*
The empty rooms
had to be empty 
and I needed to accept
that emptiness
before
I could move on.
*
and I am so so glad 
I DID 
take that time
*
So much happened
I had to give up
my job
being a teacher
was not only 
my job 
it was also what I loved
to do and to be 
it was also my hobby

I missed it SO SO MUCH
and I came in this 
mourning-process

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Had to find out 
who I was 
without my job 

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and than my 
beautiful 28 years young
daughter ELISABETH
was diagnosed
with breast-cancer
and we had to deal 
with all of that.
It happened to her
but it also happened to us 
her mother
her sister
and her two brothers
and her friends 
and family
*
She has been so very ill
from the chemo's
she lost her beautiful long hair
and her eyebrows
and her eyelashes
and so much more
things happened 

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But
she also is 
a very bright and happy 
person
and so full of life
and future

*
and 
she recovered 
her hair is growing
she has her own appartment now
and she is doing well

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we as her family
all learned a lot

*
and I am so 
greatful
and thankful
for all the support
from my blogfriends

*
knowing
you were thinking
of me and her
all over the world
was a true
BLESSING

*
and than 
life went on 
and 
my house
had empty rooms

*
the first change
was a guest-room
*
and than 
there was one room
so filled with stuff-things-boxes
from the children
They all left things behind
that needed to stay a bit longer !
*
but 
they came
and sorted-out
and the room is empty now 
the sunlight comes in again
and that made me 
SO HAPPY
*
Light in my house 
new future 
new energy 
new plans

*
and than
last sunday
my children arrived
unannounced
with buckets full paint
and brushes and all kind of stuff
to paint the empty rooms

*
the house was filled
with voices and music
and they worked hard
and I was not allowed to 
see even a glimp

*
imagen 
me downstairs
with my granddaughter Eva
not knowing 
but 
feeling 
so happy
to hear them
talking
and singing
and did I hear dancing ?
and working

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and now
my dream
( for years )
came true
I have my very own
WORKINGROOM
not only did they paint 
the whole room
They also made 
a desktop all along the longest wall !
as in my dreams
underneath the desktop
compartments
and
the work is in progress
They are going to make 
a whole new floor-covering too !

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a make-over
gift
from them
for me 

*
I am over the moon
and so happy
but also so proud 
to be their mother

*
When they are done
I can start 
and bring all my things
in my workingroom

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Happy
days
to come

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woensdag 18 juli 2012

traveling


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this is
the time of year
lots of people
are traveling
*
there are
many ways
we can travel
*
in our mind
we can also 
have
amazing
journeys

*
also by reading 
inspiring books
or watching
beautiful movies

*
happy traveling
for all of you

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maandag 9 juli 2012

zondag 8 juli 2012

look and see


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Now
living alone
in my house
without
children
empty rooms
I just sit in a room
and muse
a lot happened
during the years
and lots of
memories
come back to me
*
I look and I see
HERE and NOW
*
I need this
space
before
getting into
new ideas

*
and for now
I love what I see
going back in time
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woensdag 4 juli 2012

do

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I will always be
surprised
by the miracle
of language

*
put some letters
into words
and they become
MAGIC

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dinsdag 3 juli 2012

be brave


*
sometimes
life 
asks
to be 
BRAVE

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and when 
you 
ARE
you are
rewarded

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maandag 2 juli 2012

tea time


#
having
a cup of tea
while
writing
some cards
and letters
is such
a sweet moment

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zondag 1 juli 2012

space

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Since
I am 
the only one
living
 in my house
now
There is
 so much
 SPACE

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and I let it be
for a while
before 
making up
my mind

#
SPACE
is 
good 

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