step by step

*

one

step

at a time

*

we all know

what's meant

by that

*

we use it much often

for other persons

and few for ourselves

*

we always think

we have control

*

My wonderful

granddaughter EVA

has done

her very first 

own steps

*

everyone was

over the moon 

and that made her

do more and more

steps 

*

your very first steps

where did you do them

who was there

How did you do them

*

Eva is becoming

16 months

on september 24

and so 

she is not a very 

early walker

*

It fits her

It's how she does things

She is focussed

and 

acts calmly

in all she does

so

that's how she is 

*

now she can 

discover

much more

of the world

*

it's such a privilege

to watch and follow

all she does

and how she does it

*

step

 by

 step

*

wish you all

a step-by-step

wonderful

weekend

*

happy

*

what makes you

HAPPY

?

*

I am always 

happy when 

I see

 bright 

colours

*

I also love

to colour myself

doing that 

makes my head

clear and calm

*

I have my own 

coloured version of events

and I like that

*

*

what makes you 

HAPPY 

*

how about you ?

*

my favorite

season

*

all SUMMER's beauty

transformed

into 

colors

smells

seeds

fruits

*

and time

to muse

about

LIFE

and

how to 

transform

things

in 

my

own 

LIFE 

*

so

how about

YOU 

*

\

need I say more ?

*

My

 granddaughter 

EVA

*

and suddenly I knew......

*

I am having

my very first

own workingroom/studio

and the room is so

beautiful

white

clean

empty

............

I was a bit 

shivery

to

START

and

make up my mind

about

HOW

TO

GO

ON

*

For SO long

I have been 

DREAMING

about

..........

once upon a time

I will do 

this and that and 

......................

I collected
saved
kept
all kinds of things
because
there would come
a time
........................
*
and now this beautiful
empty room is waiting
and I hang back
WHY
*
well
suddenly
I knew
*
I not only had
to let go
my children
leaving the house
and
my job
because
of my health
I
was
FREE
to focus
on the
 FUTURE

*
all is changed
for the better
I take time
to decide
and
I feel so much
AIR
*
FREEDOM
to do 
whatever
I want NOW
*
so for now
the only thing
on my new desk
is my laptop
and my Ipod
( oh hey ...and my coffee )
*
Have 
a 
FREE
and
HAPPY
new week
*

the love for words

*

Something

very special

blogging has brought me

is

learning so much more

beautiful words

in other languages 

*

when I read 

them

on other blogs

my heart jumps

and I always write them down

and look for them in 

my dictionary

*

why did I not learn

those words in school ?

Learn to love another language ?

All I remember

is having to learn 

series of words

*

and now 

a whole world is opened

and I LOVE IT

*

small things...... great ideas

*

I 

LOVE

how

little things

can inspire

 BIG-TIME

*

sometimes

just one look 

and you know 

*

a new idea is born

*

so

watch out

and be surprised

by something

waiting for you 

to be 

a new idea

*

surprises

*

I always 

LOVE

what the dandelion 

shows us 

her yellow flowers

look amazing

already 

and than

she transformes

into this

transparent fragile 

SPHERICAL

wonder

of nature

for each and every 

little fluffy seed 

waits

patiently

for the wind to come

and take it

and than the wonder

starts all over again 

and

THAT IS

TO ME 

THE 

WONDERSURPRISE

of BLOGGING too

each blogpost

is like a dandelion

and the little sparkling seeds/words

are taken

and bring inspirations

everywhere

and who will find them

that's up to us 

I love 

AUTUMN

for showing 

me 

reminding me 

to be greatful

for all the surprises

they are 

all around

to be found 

*

Eva's first time on the beach

*

Last sunday

my granddaughter

E*V*A

visited

THE BEACH

for the very FIRST time

with her father

who is my firstborn son

and her mother

*

In Haamstede

my most favorite beach

EVER

because that's

where my parents lived

and we had many

many many summers

on that beach 

*

Wish I could live

there too

*

hope your summerdays

are blessed 

and happy 

*

it really touches me

*

my heart

has been in

being a teacher

for many many

 happy years

*

*

now times

have changed

*

*

I am no longer

working

as a teacher

but

I am a grandmother

now since a year

and that's

helping

A LOT

to overcome

*

*

at first

when my health

made me stay

at home

my heart hearts the most

*

*

of course 

HOME

is where

THE HEART

is

But a kind of HOME

was for me also

my classroom

*

Oh how I loved

being a 

nursery teacher

*

*

So many beautiful

and inspiring

children

and parents

were welcomed here

*

*

sometimes

for many years

because

brothers and sisters

came too

*

*

we shared

so so much

and wonderful

MEMORIES

are in my heart

forever

*

*

because

it had not been

my decision

to stop

but 

my healt

made me stop

it was 

HARD

*

I had to learn

a lot 

before

my heart 

could understand

what happened

*

*

to see

the present

THE PRESENT

that was given to me

I had to unwrap

like paper .......

but than

years

experiences

memories

and

*

let time do 

the healing

showing

me 

*

brightness

clarity

to

count my

 BLESSINGS

*

being

a mother of FOUR

and a mother-in-law

and a GRANDMOTHER

*

*

new doors

are opened

and my heart 

is filled

with

so much

to be ready

for the years

to come

*

*

I hope

we all can share

our journeys

for many many years

because

BLOGGING

has been 

of great importance

to me

*

*

where-ever

you are

THANK YOU

so much

for being here 

*

Is n't she lovely ?

*

my daughter

ANNA MARIA CHARLOTTE

did a roadtrip

with a friend

France

Italy

she wanted to visit

the beautiful

colorful little village

she saw on Pinterest !

and she did !

*

hope you visit

something wonderful too 

this summer 

*

Is n't she lovely ?

*

Here she is 

my little Eva

my granddaughter

almost 15 months now

with her mother

having 

a picknick

in the park

*

SHE

is the sunshine

in our lifes 

for shure

*

Happy sunshine

for all of you 

*

ZEEUWS

*

My sister

bought my two daugthers

this bags

*

She lives in the part of Holland

called ZEELAND

and some people

are wearing costumes

very beautiful

See the picture above

*

and someone

has taken that to another

CREATIVE plan

and 

designed BAGS

and postcards

*

I LOVE that

*

beginnings and endings

*

This is me

and my granddaugther EVA

born May - 24 - 2011

a new life

and we all celebrated

her coming in our lifes

We also already celebrated

her FIRST birthday

and so much happened

in her first year

We are getting to

know her

more and more and more

How wonderful

it is

each and every person

is so very much

his or her OWN/SELF

unique

*

my 6 years younger sister

is in the Hospitium now

and she will have to say

GOODBEYE

to her life soon

*

At first

when we heard

the bad/sad news

we were all so

very very sad

and

it was like

a black book

was given

to me

and than

as time went by

there was a lot

of talking

about what happened

and about her

and lots of memories

came

from all directions

like beautiful

colourful pictures

to collect

in the black book

that was given to me

my children

also dealing with the grieve

of loosing their aunt soon ,

have wonderful

memories

they shared with me

and

my sisters life

the life she lived

the life we shared as sisters

all is coming

into the book

of her life again

and

of course

it's sad she will not be

around

much sooner
than we thought and expected
but
that's life too

We never now
but we do know
life is a very special gift
worth celebrating
at the beginning
but also at the end
*

*

confused

*

Go on ?

or stop ?

share ?

or not ?

*

I loved blogging

since I started .

and I still do .

*

It's easy to share

HAPPINESS

and 

all the comments

and connections

bring so much 

JOY

*

but now 

something happened

in my family

and I do have to share

so you know

why I am not here

as much as I wanted

and also 

why I cannot share

just happy images

and joyful words

at the moment

*

My middle sister

was diagnosed

with longcancer

two weeks ago

and it's very very bad.

She already had a bad health

because of longemphysema

and now this .

because of her weekness

there can be nothing done anymore

so 

within two weeks

she

and her family

and we 

her brother and sisters

had to deal with A LOT

*

all has been talked about

all arrangements have been made

she declines by day

*

today

she is moving

to a hospitium

Her own wish

*

I still cannot believe

this is happening

We , my brother and other sister

and me had a long meeting

to share and talk about

all what's to be done

*

Of course I have also

my own children

who are suddenly

about to loose

a very sweet aunt

They also have their grief

*

Now you know

why I cannot be

blogging

the way I prefere 

*

I must admit 

it is also a very special time

we are sharing as a family

*

My sister always

loved the sky by night

always watching the stars 

now she is leaving us soon

to be one herself