BELIEVE

*
Tomorrow 
is 
my birthday
so 
today
is my last day 
from this year
so
I am cuddling
on my couche
staying inside
with tea and little ligths
musing
.............
how was my year
and what do I wish for
next year ?
...................
always
special
such a day
*

My friend Marianne

*

december 11  2005

my friend

Marianne

passed away

She was a single mom

of twin-girls

Josanne and Josine

The girls were 21

when they lost their

mom 

They were students

and had to go on 

There were brothers and sisters

of their mother

but 

that's not the same !

They did well

Josine got married

and is a working mom

and mother of Maik and Sienna

Josanne studied 

Psychology 

and graduated in biological 

and cognitive psychology.

She also completed a research internship

at the Institute of Psychology

at the Erasmus University Rotterdam

on december 4  2012

she is defending her dissertation 

PATHWAYS TO

VIOLENCE

IN

SCHIZOPHRENIA

*

Can you imagen

the girl who played

so often at my house 

with her twin-sister

because 

they were

best-friends of my Elisabeth

that girl is now

appointed as

an assistent professor

at the Erasmus School of Law

( section of criminology )

*

Reading the invition

I got tears in my eyes

How wonderful would

all this have been for

my friend Marianne

How proud she would have been

Being a single mom

was not easy for her

and she always did

the best she could

*

so

the

five-hundred-million

BELLS

are 

for her

for sure

*

There's always 

HOPE

*

BE SAFE

*

My thoughts

and prayers

are 

with/for

all the people

who are

without the safety

of their own home

*

having 

blog-friends

in the U.S.

is not the same as

having friends

in Holland

My laptop

shares a lot with me

but seeing the news

made me realize

how little I know

but one thing 

I know for sure

my thoughts

and prayers

are 

for ALL

*

STUFF

*
AMAZING
isn't it,
how some see
THE BASKET
half empty
and others see
it half full ?

Some see life hopeless
some hopeful
Even when things 
are less than perfect.

If you can think of
THE GOOD
THE BEAUTIFUL
THE HOPEFUL
you'll be more than
sustained

*
Autumn 
is the season
to show us
so much beauty
The harvest !
to see
to feel
to taste
to cherish
to share

*
hope your week
is beautiful
*

COSY

*

WISH

I could make

these

*

Anyway

I send you all

this picture

to wish you 

a cosy weekend

*

* * H *A * P * P * Y * *

*
S M I L E
*

WHY ?

*

because you can !

*
Enjoy
 your
 weekend

*

in our sleep

*

in our sleep

pain

that cannot forget

FALLS

drop

by

drop

upon the heart

and

in our own

dispair

against our will

comes

WISDOM

through 

the awful 

GRACE

of

GOD

*

AESCHYLUS

*

I love to be surprised
by hearing a quote
that touches me .....
stays with me
gives me something
to think about
or
to understand
a little bit more
about
LIFE

*
wish you find a 
wonderful 
quote 
somewhere
today

*
You 
never
know

*

*

today

my friend Helma

called me

we had not spoken

for years 

*

we were BEST FRIENDS

from my third till my sixteenth

than we moved away

and lost contact

now and than 

a postcard

a christmas card

*

and now 

a phonecall

to hear her voice

after so many years

wonderful SURPRISE

and guess what

SHE IS MOVING

TO INDIA

FOR THREE YEARS

we promissed

to go writing

and emailing

*

you never know

what the day 

will bring

*

concentration

*

when

you write down

your ideas

you

automatically

focus

your full attention

on them.

Few

if any of us

can write one thought

and

think another

at the same time

Thus a pencil

and paper

make

EXCELLENT

concentration tools

*

I am having a 
confusing
time
my head is 
very
disorganized

*
time
to sit down
and write down

and focus

*

sometimes I love gentle

*

the voice
of beauty
speaks softly
it creeps only
into 
the most
fully
 awakened
souls

Friedrich Nietzsche

*
some days
I love my pastel colours
they feel just right
and a little bit of 
GOLD
how I love that too .....

*
hope your week will be 
in harmony 

*

on the final flicker of summer's light

*

it's october

but

now and than

it looks 

like

summer

is not gone

musing

outside

with 

the sun

on my face

eyes closed

it feels

wonderful

and

brings 

faith

for all the storms

that will come

*

have a warm weekend

*

I love receiving post ....cards...letters.....

*

in 2010

I mentioned

how I love receiving 

post....cards....letters

How I love the handwriting

the enveloppes

the poststamps

the idea someone 

did all that

the exitement

of opening

making coffee

sit down

and 

enjoy

be inspired

be thankfull

be surprised

*

ever since

I have received

the most 

amazing

exciting

beautiful

cards

letters

packages

poststamps

handwriting-art-works

and above all

I got to know

some pretty-amazing women

all over the ocean

*

thank

you 

all

for 

being

there/here

for me

*

means

the

world

to

me

*

The joy of being a grandmother

*

today

Eva was with me

she is such a 

sweet girl

*

when she is with me

my day is always 

HAPPY

*

be quiescent

*

October

is here

*

summer

is leaving

*

leaving us

to bring us

inside again

*

musing 

with coffee

and little lights

*

I have to think

about what

I am going

to speak

on the service

of my sisters 

cremation

she still is

in the hospitium

but she is disappearing

slowly

from this life

to elsewhere

*

I am confused

sometimes

about 

life's 

capriciousness

*

my sister

who is only 

55 years old

is dying

my granddaughter

having her first steps

my son proposing his Vanessa

my daughter Elisabeth

recovering so great

after breastcancer

being only 28 years young

*

and here I am

so greatful

and thankful

for the life

given to me 

*

Yes

*

WILL

YOU

DO

ME

THE

HONNOR

OF

BECOMING

MY 

WIFE

?

my son

asked

his Vanessa

.........

she said

YES

*

I visualised

a lot

but I never

thought 

about

my children

getting married !

*

september 2013

so a whole year

to look forward

*

I love

how they love

each-other

makes me 

a very happy

mother

*

OCTOBER

*

OCTOBER

is crisp days

and cool nights

a time to curl up

around the dancing flames

and

sink into a good BOOK

*

Happy october

for all of you 

*

you know

*

IF

you are

depressed

you

are 

living 

in 

THE PAST

IF

you are 

anxious

you 

are

living

in

THE FUTURE

IF

you are 

at peace

you 

are

living

in

THE PRESENT

*

wish you 

lots of 

PRESENTS

*

sparkle and shine

*
people
are
like
stained-glass
windows

they
sparkle
and 
shine
when the sun is out

but
when the darkness sets in
their
true beauty
is
revealed
only
if there is
a LIGHT 
from
within 

Elisabeth Kubler Ross

*

step by step

*

one

step

at a time

*

we all know

what's meant

by that

*

we use it much often

for other persons

and few for ourselves

*

we always think

we have control

*

My wonderful

granddaughter EVA

has done

her very first 

own steps

*

everyone was

over the moon 

and that made her

do more and more

steps 

*

your very first steps

where did you do them

who was there

How did you do them

*

Eva is becoming

16 months

on september 24

and so 

she is not a very 

early walker

*

It fits her

It's how she does things

She is focussed

and 

acts calmly

in all she does

so

that's how she is 

*

now she can 

discover

much more

of the world

*

it's such a privilege

to watch and follow

all she does

and how she does it

*

step

 by

 step

*

wish you all

a step-by-step

wonderful

weekend

*

happy

*

what makes you

HAPPY

?

*

I am always 

happy when 

I see

 bright 

colours

*

I also love

to colour myself

doing that 

makes my head

clear and calm

*

I have my own 

coloured version of events

and I like that

*

*

what makes you 

HAPPY 

*

how about you ?

*

my favorite

season

*

all SUMMER's beauty

transformed

into 

colors

smells

seeds

fruits

*

and time

to muse

about

LIFE

and

how to 

transform

things

in 

my

own 

LIFE 

*

so

how about

YOU 

*

\

need I say more ?

*

My

 granddaughter 

EVA

*

and suddenly I knew......

*

I am having

my very first

own workingroom/studio

and the room is so

beautiful

white

clean

empty

............

I was a bit 

shivery

to

START

and

make up my mind

about

HOW

TO

GO

ON

*

For SO long

I have been 

DREAMING

about

..........

once upon a time

I will do 

this and that and 

......................

I collected
saved
kept
all kinds of things
because
there would come
a time
........................
*
and now this beautiful
empty room is waiting
and I hang back
WHY
*
well
suddenly
I knew
*
I not only had
to let go
my children
leaving the house
and
my job
because
of my health
I
was
FREE
to focus
on the
 FUTURE

*
all is changed
for the better
I take time
to decide
and
I feel so much
AIR
*
FREEDOM
to do 
whatever
I want NOW
*
so for now
the only thing
on my new desk
is my laptop
and my Ipod
( oh hey ...and my coffee )
*
Have 
a 
FREE
and
HAPPY
new week
*