in my heart

*

How about you ?

are you aware of

what's in YOUR heart ?

.

I told you about 

my friend

who has received

NEW LONGS

and got a new chance 

to live longer

before the operation

I was thinking more  and more

about how my life would be

without my friend

and that thought made me

sad very very sad.

Growing older

loosing people

becomes more and more

reality 

At first I could only think

about the lost

and the missing

I know 

since the operation

all has changed

but 

something else has changed too

By letting in my feelings

and taking myself seriously

something 

wonderful happened

I realised 

the people you have 

closed in your heart

they stay there

for ever 

I carry their heart

with me

I carry it 

in my heart 

I know that 

now

better than before 

Happy new week 

to all of you 

*

Oma Muize

*

I love EVA

my granddaughter

She is now 20 months of age

and  she talks ......

I love MAILEG mice 

I have three of them

Two living in this box

and 
on my last birthday
the right one
came to live with me

In dutch they are called
MUIZEN
MUIS (if it's one )

sometimes
when Eva is with me
we call them 
we sind a song
and go and find out
if they are AWAKE
and willing to play with us 

We love to play with them
and than
one day
when she was at home
and her mother said
they were going to visit me
Eva said

OMA MUIZE

and that's what she calls me
oma muize 

That's my Valentine Love Story
for you today 

*

it just fits ........

*

It just fits

into

this empty place

in your heart .....

After reading those words

found them while

pinteresting

...................

I was amazed

again

by

what a few words

can say ... can do ...

THIS EMPTY PLACE

IN YOUR HEART

and something

fits in 

*

I am still

IN BETWEEN

an old life

and a new one

the old one

is very far away 

that is my married life 

20 years ago !

and than there was 

this life as a single parent

with four children

and a full-time

teaching job

and than two years 

of not being able to work 

anymore

and having to let go

this amazing job

as a kindergartenteacher

and also 

adjusting to lots of pain...

and 

in the same time

my two last staying at home

children 

moved out 

and there I was

in this house 

with the empty rooms

and an empty agenda

and an empty life 

*

at first it only was

all of that 

I simply could not think

about 

THE FUTURE

what future ?

I was not a mother 

of children in my house

anymore

I was not a teacher anymore

I was completely LOST

*

Thanks to my very special

Blogfriends

I was belonging somewhere

in this space

between reality and 

what was to come ....

*

because

by blogging

I was discouvering

a whole new part of ME

All those amzing inspiring

women all over the world

sharing so much

and being there for

EACHOTHER

*

SURPRISING

me in the mail

with the most heartwarming

packets

*

bringing me

new friendship

and also 

SPACE

by thinking worldwide !

letting me know

I was good

just the way I was

*

and so I could go

to accept

and  mourn about the lost 

of my work 

and lots of other stuf

I put away somewhere

because I was too busy

SURVIVING

with my children 

*

I dealed with a lot

in the past two years

and now 

it's like this WINTER

it's like 

all is done and waiting

to flourish like SPRING 

*

it feels like 

I have so much space

inside me now

and I cannot wait

for all that's to come

all the new chances

all the TIME

the peace and the space

*

I guess that is 

very new too

to have 

PEACE

OF MIND

working so hard 

for so many years

was 

busy busy busy

always busy

*

And

now

I enjoy

having TIME

*

I have find out

how important it is

TO BE

in the moment

to feel what's to be felt

and to own that

and than ........

move on 

*

It's an amazing journey

and the light is shining in now

It feels like 

SPRINGCLEANING

my life

and I also

count all my blessing

I can see clearly now

much more

in PEACE

and with great gratitude

how

ALL OF IT

has brought me

where I am

HERE AND NOW

*

LOOKING FORWARD

to all that's coming

to me

in the future

and will fit in

*

I hope 

you are doing well

on your journey

let's share

and be here

for each-other

You 

are 

in my HEART 

*

white

*

as much as I love 

COLOURS

I have never loved

WHITE

more as the past time 

*

THE FIRST OF ALL COLORS

IS WHITE

WE SHALL SET DOWN

WHITE

FOR THE REPRESENTATIVE

OF LIGHT,

WITHOUT WHICH 

NO COLOR CAN BE SEEN ;

leonardo da vinci

*

wish you 

all

JOY 

*

colours

*

The purest 

and most thoughtful

MINDS

are those

wich

LOVE COLOUR

the most

John Ruskin

*

I am a clear-bright-colour fan

absolutely LOVE

bright colours

they always make me

HAPPY

*

Hope your weekend

may be colourful

*

just BE

*

I am so happy

to be here again

my laptop was out of order

and IS now 

repared 

Missing something

makes you realise

how important it was .

For me 

to have to miss

blogging

was 

ENLIGHTENING

sometimes 

we take things for granted

I DID

and I discovered 

how important it was and is 

to me .

and also 

it was/is time

to choose

to choose

after two years of blogging

HOW

I want to be as a blogger

what I choose to share 

I admire 

the blogs

who are vey personal

with words from that person

I sometimes

choose to be safe

and took 

a wonderful quote

from a famous person

and a beautiful picture

from Pinterest

and 

?

nice but .........

why doing that 

I could have been

just a reader

with other blogs

and enjoy them

and leave comments 

but I did not

I so much wanted to be

a blogger 

and 

I was ......

sometimes

I tried to be personal

that's more difficult

in a language

in which I am not used 

to express myself

Impossible sometimes

SO

picking quotes

was a way to express

what I could not say

myself

I love 

the combination 

of beautiful words

going along with

a beautiful picture

Long ago 

I found out

there are people

who are artists themselves

and there are the ones

that know to appreciate the art !

and love to share 

help to share !

I am with the last category

so 

her I go again 

*

exhilarating

*

Sunshine

is delicious

Rain

is refreshing

Wind

braces us up

Snow

is exhilarating

there is really 

no such thing

as bad weather

only

different kinds

of good weather

John Ruskin

*

We have snow

all is beautiful white

I sat on my couche

little Eva on my lap

we watched

the snowflakes

we did not say a word

Magical

*

INVISIBLE

*
Make friends
with the ANGELS
who
though invisible
are always with you

Often invoke them
praise them
and be aware
they can help
and assistance
in all your temporal
and spiritual affairs

Saint FRANCIS de Sales
photo by Berta Drost

*
Since our friend
Peter
got new longs
this week
we are praying for him
all the time

the words above
about the angels
being invissable
well
there are so many ANGELS
who are vissable
amongst us 

all the doctors and nurses
and also
there WAS a human-being
who signed a donor-codicil

there is a family
who lost a dear-one
and 
now 
our friend has been given
a new start
*
so
all the angels
all around us
deserve
to be recognised

they are all around

*

Miracles happen

*

I cannot stand

when I am having

a hard time

and do not seem

to overcome

and get over it

Yesterday 

and the day before

I was SO not being

my calm self

I was restless

and all the time

thinking about a very dear friend

He was not feeling well

and he already is 

very fragile

He is on the waitinglist

to become new longs

and

you can imagen how bad it has to be

to even get on that list .

always in and out the hospital

and handing in more and more

He was such an 

ENJOYING life type

and had to adjust

more and more and more

AND THAN

my friend Astrid ( his wife )

send me an sms

We are in the hospital

and

HE HAS NEW LONGS

I was over the moon 

This was what he had been waiting for

and how WONDER-FUL

this is possible

so now

we all pray for him

and HOPE

for his new beginning

to be WONDERFUL

* 

*

I know

it's january

and there's a lot of 

WINTER

yet to come

but

I need grape hyacinth's

just because of that

beautiful HOPE

to know Spring will come

I know .....first more winter ...

I know

*

LOVE LIFE

*

FEAR

 and

 FAITH

have something

in common 

They both 

ask us

to

BELIEVE

in something 

we cannot see

Joel Osteen

*

Before me

not only

like for all of you

the new year

but

also

a new future

*

after two years

not been able to work

as a kindergarten-teacher

anymore

because of a worn-out back

many visits to 

doctors specialists

many medical examinations

scan's 

and above all

lots of painkillers

there is only 

one solution

NO SOLUTION

live with it

No more working

for me

*

It's official now

*

Since I already

am at home for almost 

two years now

I already worked out

lots of feelings

MISSING

MOURNING

but

even more

dispite the never ending pain

COUNT MY BLESSINGS

as there are

my children 

and my grand-daugther 

*

so

here's

to a wonderful new year

to come

for all of us

FAITH

above 

FEAR

Love Life

*

HOPE

*

I hope

you are 

having

a good time

these december-days

before Christmas

writing christmas-cards

thinking of your friends and family

decorating your house

enjoying candlelight and music

and your TREE

and wintertea

and shopping

and 

also enjoying 

all the cards

mister postman

will bring you

from all over the world

*

The sun and the moon ......

*
The sun and the moon sets,
but they're not gone.
Death is a coming together.
*
Death
is both 
dramatic and sutle.
Over time , the parting of a loved one
becomes less harsh as slowly and gently
a continued bond is reveled.
As I open my heart to the promtings
and guidance of those I love
who have passed from the physical sphere,
I am alert to the contact 
which comes to me in many forms
as memory , as intuition and coincidence.
Rather than bitterly close my heart,
I allow myself to maintain a gentle
but alert intention to the touch of Spirit.
I remind myself that life begets life
and those I love live on 
in my loving memory of them.
I also allow for the possibility that
my memory lives on in them
triggering their concerned contact
in subtle forms.

From the book
PRAYERS TO THE GREAT CREATOR
by Julia Cameron 

*
Maybe
it is everything together
the lost of my sister
the time of year 
the early darkness in the afternoon
the candle-lights
but
I am very much
on my own these days
musing lots of musing

Of course I am sad about the lost
but there is so much more to it
Because life goes on 
and is even more precious
than it already was to me.
A true gift 
each and every day

*

be warm

*

For

every

BEAUTY

there is an eye

somewhere 

to see it

For 

every 

TRUTH

there is an ear

somewhere

to hear it

For

every

LOVE

there is a heart

somewhere

to receive it

*

so

pay attention

and 

maybe

you will be

surprised

*

happy saterday

*

We make

a living

by what we get

but we make

a life 

by what 

we give

Winston Churchil

*

happy

christmas

preparations

*

family

*

What

can we DO

to promote

world peace ?

Go Home

and 

LOVE

our family

Mother Theresa

*

LIFE

*

LIFE

is an opportunity 

benefit from it

LIFE

is beauty 

admire it

LIFE

is a dream

realize it

LIFE

is a challenge

meet it

LIFE

is a duty

complete it

LIFE

is a game 

play it

LIFE

is a promise

fulfil it

LIFE

is sorrow

overcome it

LIFE

is a song

sing it

LIFE

is a struggle

accept it

LIFE

is a tragedy

confront it

LIFE

is an adventure

dare it

LIFE

is luck

make it

LIFE

is too precious

do not destroy it

LIFE

is

LIFE

fight for it

Mother Teresa

*