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SORRY
for not being here
but
Since I have my house
for my own now
because
all my children
are having
their own place now
I needed time
*
The empty rooms
had to be empty
and I needed to accept
that emptiness
before
I could move on.
*
and I am so so glad
I DID
take that time
*
So much happened
I had to give up
my job
being a teacher
was not only
my job
it was also what I loved
to do and to be
it was also my hobby
I missed it SO SO MUCH
and I came in this
mourning-process
*
Had to find out
who I was
without my job
*
and than my
beautiful 28 years young
daughter ELISABETH
was diagnosed
with breast-cancer
and we had to deal
with all of that.
It happened to her
but it also happened to us
her mother
her sister
and her two brothers
and her friends
and family
*
She has been so very ill
from the chemo's
she lost her beautiful long hair
and her eyebrows
and her eyelashes
and so much more
things happened
*
But
she also is
a very bright and happy
person
and so full of life
and future
*
and
she recovered
her hair is growing
she has her own appartment now
and she is doing well
*
we as her family
all learned a lot
*
and I am so
greatful
and thankful
for all the support
from my blogfriends
*
knowing
you were thinking
of me and her
all over the world
was a true
BLESSING
*
and than
life went on
and
my house
had empty rooms
*
the first change
was a guest-room
*
and than
there was one room
so filled with stuff-things-boxes
from the children
They all left things behind
that needed to stay a bit longer !
*
but
they came
and sorted-out
and the room is empty now
the sunlight comes in again
and that made me
SO HAPPY
*
Light in my house
new future
new energy
new plans
*
and than
last sunday
my children arrived
unannounced
with buckets full paint
and brushes and all kind of stuff
to paint the empty rooms
*
the house was filled
with voices and music
and they worked hard
and I was not allowed to
see even a glimp
*
imagen
me downstairs
with my granddaughter Eva
not knowing
but
feeling
so happy
to hear them
talking
and singing
and did I hear dancing ?
and working
*
and now
my dream
( for years )
came true
I have my very own
WORKINGROOM
not only did they paint
the whole room
They also made
a desktop all along the longest wall !
as in my dreams
underneath the desktop
compartments
and
the work is in progress
They are going to make
a whole new floor-covering too !
*
a make-over
gift
from them
for me
*
I am over the moon
and so happy
but also so proud
to be their mother
*
When they are done
I can start
and bring all my things
in my workingroom
*
Happy
days
to come
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