HIP HIP HOORAY

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YES

YES

YES

I will be getting

HIP-REPLACEMENT-SURGERY

November 5 

I cannot tell you how

HAPPY 

I was when I heard the news.

now there is 

a whole new future

for me 

I hear a lot 

about how heavy it will be

but

I all the time

in such terrible pain 

that was heavy !

now it will be 

for the best

for the future 

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so
meet my two new best friends !
they already are 
such a release 

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Hope to get the answers I wish to hear .......

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I hope

you get 

the answers

you want to hear 

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these words

hit me 

and all of a sudden

I knew

why all of this 

took me so so long

I can see 

now

clearly

I can feel now

deep inside

the answers I want to hear

After years 

and months

 and weeks 

and days

 and nights

of being lost

and hold on 

and survive

I

now

know

I found myself

and now I know

what I want

and what I wish for

Oh YES

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choreography

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When 

life

gets you

down

improvise

as if

crawling

was part of

the choreography

Iveta Cherneva

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I am counting down

for two appointments

to hear

about maybe

operations

to help me

getting on my feet again

for long that seemed

a bad scenario

but I turned around

and now All I hope

is for a miracle

I visualise

a future

with less or no pain

and being able to go 

EVERYWHERE

for now

I make little things

I can do 

sitting on my couch 

and I muse

about 

happy things

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for Carol

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Carol
inspired me to look for this picture
and share it with you all 

Carol had a wonderful blogpost about Seashells

She also commented on my post 
reminding me 

LIFE
IS NOT
ABOUT FINDING YOURSELF

LIFE
IS ABOUT
CREATING YOURSELF

sHE ALSO HAD A VERY INSPIRING POST 
ABOUT 

HOW WE THINK 

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When you are a follower of my posts
you know I am in a stage of 
finding my way 
from old to new 

and I love to have my 
wonderful inspiring blogfiends 

Thank you all
for being here for me 

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LOST

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LOST

can be surprising 

at first

all I could think was

I was lost .....lost

and that could not be good .

I have to admit 

I was afraid and 

all I wanted was

to be back to where

all was okay .

Well

that did not happen 

instead of 

trying to enjoy 

new things

I was only trying to 

get back .

This had to be wrong

This had to be a mistake 

This could not be true 

This could not be happening

Well 

it did and it was .

I disappeared in denying

and 

than

I realised 

This is it 

This is what it is right now

This is what I have to deal with

and

there is always

always

always

something 

to be thankful for 

I accept how it is 

and begin to see

the wonderful things

the wonderful friendships

the love

coming to me

every day 

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Instead of hanging in the pain

I begin to see

maybe I am not lost 

maybe I am going somewhere

Oh how I love to read

your blogs

Thank you all

for being here 

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