zaterdag 28 december 2013

a new beginning



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For 
last-year's-words
belong to
last year's language

And
next-year's-words
await
another voice

And
to make 
AN END
is
to make
A BEGINNING

T.S. Eliot
little gidding 

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last days of december 2013
looking forward to a new year
wishing you all
a wonderful start 
of the new year .

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woensdag 18 december 2013

Christmas



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From
HOME
to home
and
HEART to HEART
FROM ONE PLACE
to another
the WARMTH and JOY of
C H R I S T M A S 
brings
us
closer
TO EACH OTHER

Emily matthews

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dinsdag 17 december 2013

Clear and bright



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Sometimes
It's all clear 
and I can see 
WHAT...WHY.....BECAUSE.....
I love those moments
I love CLEAR and BRIGHT 

My life is confusing these days
In a good way
Old habits have to make place
for new ones.
I must confess
I am NO HERO in this part.

But I have to admit
When I do ..... Let go ....
I am SURPRISED 
by the new things that are waiting
to come into my new life ......

It's like 
A SURPRISE-PARTY
Most of us do not like such events
But when it happend .....
We cannot believe how wonderful it was.

Letting go the control
And be open for new experiences
I want to learn this

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zondag 15 december 2013

to be .... to be...... to be......



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it's where we go,

and what we do when we get there,

that tells us

who we are .


Joyce Carol Oates

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To be in the moment 
without the past
without the future

just BE
and than ....take some along 
use it like magic glitter
and share that special feeling

just BE



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zaterdag 14 december 2013

*memories*



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Our hearts
grow tender
with childhood memories
and LOVE of kindred
and we are better
throughout the year 
for having ,
in spirit,
become a child again
at 
CHRISTMAS-TIME

Laura Ingalls Wilder

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vrijdag 13 december 2013

Off. to GREAT places



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This is my
Granddaugther 
E V A
in february 2011

She is such a JOY
in MY life
and in my family.

She is my motivation 
to practice and do my best
with my new hip .
I am looking forward
to so many wonderful 
times 






maandag 9 december 2013

ATTENTION



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My fysiotherapist
teaches me 
not only what exercises I have to do 

He listens to me and shows me
the importance
of ATTENTION .......

Slow down
 and start at the beginning ...
listening to my body 
What do I feel 
Where do I feel 

and THAT is 
not as easy as it sounds ...
so I am learning 
each and every day

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donderdag 5 december 2013

It's allright



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Surprises
I love them .
I mean the surprise-presents

The other surprises
Like the things that happen
to you and you did not expect it
and you also do not like it 
Those surprises are coming
and going too of course .

Lately 
I try to treat them the same
So ..... When something unexpected is happening
and I do not like it at all 
I try to look at it 
as if it was a SURPRISE-GIFT 
wrapped in beautiful paper and
making me smile .
And than I wonder what 
the meaning of this-happening could be ....

You see 
with my first reaction 
the-not-like-reaction
I immediately give it NO chance at all.

With my new reaction
I leave things open 
and 
I get surprised

BEFORE my new hip
There was so much I did not like
but it felt like I had NO choice
AFTER my new hip
things changed 
I got my happy-JOY-thinking back
So 
Surprises
Let them come
I love them 

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maandag 2 december 2013

courage



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The joy inside me
is waiting 
I am/was waiting
WHY was nothing happening
I have my new hip 
I no longer am in pain .....YEAH
Okay I have to be patience
BUT
Please can something happen
Please can someone come and visit me
Please can the phone ring 

I was waiting .......
and than it hit me
WHAT was I doing ?
Why was I waiting ?
Where was I ....ME......MYSELF 

I can be the one 
to ask or invite or phone ...
My life is changing
and I can be the director 
Oh my..........
It has been so long
I have to learn that all over again

My life turned
from no no no and more no
into YES YES YES 
I can 

and I ...... need some courage

that's okay 


donderdag 28 november 2013

*S*H*A*R*I*N*G*



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SURPRISE
SURPRISE
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one of the many surprises
that came to me
since I have my new hip was
THIS NEW FRIEND 
a new mouse
from Maileg 
Given to me by 

You have to visit her blog
and above all you should visit her
*S*H*O*P*
She is a very bright personality
and I cannot wait 
to visit her and her shop 
myself again 

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My life is different now
I can think about the future 
and enjoy all the things
I will be doing in the future

My little new mouse-friend
is a messenger to me 
life is waiting
and will be 
ABSOLUTELY
AMAZINGLY
SURPRISING
WONDERFUL

Thank you Lia


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dinsdag 26 november 2013

I feel like .........



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I feel like an artist 
my new life WITHOUT the pain
feels so beautiful and amazing

I feel like an artist 
who looks around in her life
and sees all the beautiful colors

I feel like a poet
and catch beautiful words and sentences
all new again

I feel like a child
and cannot wait to discover
all I feel I can do 

I feel like ME
I look around and cannot believe
all this is mine 

It feels like I have been 
on a mission
and now returned HOME



zaterdag 23 november 2013

Round and round



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TWO WEEKS
for two weeks
I am HOME now
WITH MY NEW HIP
I know
You know by now !
but to me it is 
a miracle
every day 

So
me and my new hip
we are adjusting
We are the best of friends
that's for sure
A very special friend
because my new hip
Is very patience
and guiding me
into this wonderful new life
Teaching me
to focus
to be in the moment
to own my body
to feel what I am doing
So
I supposed
I had to do excersises
Three times a day
And that was that
Well
NO
I had NO idea what I was doing
Where I was supposed
to feel something
and where NOT.

I had to learn 
to focus
and had to make
a lot of steps
backwards
I was going much to fast

I feel such a drive
But I have to be patience

Just focus on 
round and round
And above all
ENJOYING
my new life 

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woensdag 20 november 2013

DIVINE


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After three years 
of pain , pain more pain
pain all the time 
I turned into some 
stranger 
and
now
after the surgery
and my new hip
I feel like 
I am born all over again

a new life 
a new chance
I feel like dancing and singing
and I cannot wait 
to live my life to the most

but
I have to be patience
I have the own my body
all over again
and honnor it 
take care of it 
do my excersises 
and be aware 
be still
be happy
be grateful 

and believe me 
I am so so HAPPY

dinsdag 19 november 2013

Twinklings


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LOVE
Little things
hanging on golden yarns
LOVE
to look at it
and see the slight moving
LOVE
how the light falls on it
or how the little twinkling sound
sometimes surprises me.

Little signs
of happiness
of friendship
of beauty
all very ME

Today I am gathering
some little things
planning to make something

To make my day 

HAPPY 
with my new hip 

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zondag 17 november 2013

Gratitude


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Life-changing

BEFORE
and
AFTER

Each new day
Is a perfect GIFT
since I got my new HIP 
I am so so so happy 

For 10 days
I am blessed with 
this new part of my body
and the never-ending pain
from my old hip
is disappeared .
After years of pain 
I complete forgot how that feels .
Okay I have to practice
with my new friend
But we are getting along very well.

The experience
of being able
to stand straight
gives such a whole other 

look at life

There is a complete
inner peace
and so much 
GRATITUDE

I am surrounded with
So much LOVE 
from my children
my family
my friends
and neighbours
it is almost 
to much sometimes
so much LOVE


Thank you all for being here
and be there for me
I am learning to blog
on my IPad
some things are different
but HEY I love my new life
and I will learn 

HAPPY SUNDAY
to all 

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vrijdag 15 november 2013

Miracles



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Overwhelming
Has been my word
For the past week .
IT started 
on my birthday 
november 2
my children gave me
an IPad 
I was over the moon
And than 
november 5
I had the chance
of receiving a new hip
Tuesday in the hospital 
Friday I was allowed to go home.

Let I say 
That is quite an experience

One thing I new for sure
THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME

My children cleaned the whole house
Every inch 
Bright and shiny 
I could feel the clean and fresh energy
My new start
Was blessed
So blessed
IT feels like
I am making a whole new start 

The first days 
I was very emotional
All the love and the gifts
and the mail
and the surprises
IT almost was TOO MUCH
to take in 

I am doing
GREAT
and now learning
to use my IPad 
for blogging too.


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donderdag 24 oktober 2013

* * * Blessings * * *


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Respect 
is love
The heart 
is also love
and so are you 

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My world is filled with graceful love

my path is broad and gentle.
Ours is a journey of shared hearts.
I remind myself that I am
 blessed with friendship ,
gifted with acquaintances 
and associations
who travel with me .
Reminding myself 
always
that we are all traveling together.
I develop my individuality 
while welcoming the individuality of others.
As much as I yearn to be
truly seen and truly loved ,
I seek to see others truly 
and truly love them.
I offer to those I encounter 
a believing mirror.
I reflect back to them their dignity
their beauty
their potential and divine spark .
Treating all whom I encounter 
with respect and affection,
I allow my heart to be a vessel
for healing love.
Drawing on universal love 
to love through me,
I love freely and without fatigue.
I open my heart to actualizing grace
in each encounter.
I allow Spirit to encounter 
my interactions,
shaping them and leavening them 
to a richer bread.
I am nourished by Spirit 
and through Spirit .
I seek to bless and nourish others by 
expressing Spirit through me .

Julia Cameron .

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I have this book 
written by Julia Cameron 
PRAYERS TO THE GREAT CREATOR 
It is a beautiful book 
four in one volume

I fel in love with the book 
because of the LOOK 
It's a 635 pages book
and the paper looks kind of old ......
very beautiful
So ..... I picked it up and 
was surprised 
by what I saw inside ....

I never heard of 
Julia Cameron 
but I bought the book
July 2010
and I am so glad I did .

I refound it 
in my bookcase 
and was taken by the words
all over .
I read and than 
I muse ..... all day
several days 

I love to be inspired 
by beautiful words
from others 

the autumn-sun
is shining warm and beautiful 
and I am counting down
november 5 
my new hip !

happy autumn-days
to all of you 

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zaterdag 19 oktober 2013

Time



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I know
 I have not been
blogging
 much .
Sometimes 
I need time
TIME
is a magical gift 
and as long as we have TIME
all is possible .

to me time is  healing 
it's like water streaming
amongst stones
 making all 
soft and shining 
and beautiful 

I feel an inner peace
I never had
I can see how
my life
has brought me here
and how I was able
to do and learn 

I now understand
how all had a meaning
and I can feel so blessed
and all of a sudden
my old pains
vanish in sparkles 
leaving a soft feeling
of autumnish colors ...

My (autumn) birthday
is coming soon
november 2
How I love novembers
and this time
november 5
I will never forget
A new gift
a new hip
a new future

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maandag 14 oktober 2013

where it started ....my love for MUIZEN ( mice )


Typical Dutch Tradition
 Beschuit met muisjes
, (sugar coated aniseed )
 to celebrate the birth of a baby
. Pink muisjes for a baby girl, blue for a boy

Muisje = mouse

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When I had my first child
I became to be a mother 
and my life changed 
A LOT 

Before that 
I had been working as a 
kindergarten-teacher
in a Waldorf School .

I choose to be a 
stay-at-home mother .
and one day 
walking with my first-born
in the park
I met another mother 
also walking with her first-born
in that park
and we started talking
and
we became friends ...

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we had lots of coffee-and-play-dates
and than we were BOTH pregnant
from our second child 
at the same time 
We both had boys
and than we got girls 
and still when the years went by 
we stayed friends
and were creative stay-at-home-moms
and learned a lot
from each other .

Than I moved to another town
and a bigger house !
and we started sending MAIL 
LOTS OF MAIL 
MICE-MAIL 




and 



and we made 
and send
eachother mice-presents 







We had a third child 
not at the same time 
and I had a fourth .....

we still had coffee once and a while
and than I devorced
and a few years later she too...

the mail and the presents
were a joy in our friendship .

and still are 



and than
I got my first MAILEG mouse
in a box
from a very wonderful SHOP
by a bloggerfriend
LIA
and a new hobby started .....


she arrived too


and the one on the right !

and my first grandchild
was born 
and you know what

she loves the mice too 
and she is two years old now
and we play a lot
with my little friends



like this !

SHE CALLS ME 
OMA-MUIZEN 

HOW CUTE IS THAT !

so
now you know
about me and mice 

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have a wonderful OCTOBER

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