I used to start my days musing with my first coffee , some writing and than GO .
Because my life was filled with my four children and my job as a kindergarten-teacher .
That was my ME-time .
I loved my very-early-morning bike rides to school when the world was waking up and I seemed to be the only one on the road ..... The rhythm in my biking worked as a creative inspirational process.
Thinking about the day to come .....
I was always very early at "work" so I could pick fresh flowers and have coffee and making a warm welcome for the children .
Not working anymore and no children in my home anymore changed all of that .
Now it's August 2015 and after receiving two new hips in 2014 I am working on my come-back
I have one new "job" and that is being a grandmother .
She is a bundle of joy and has so much love to give for free ❤️
From the first time I saw her , and my son as a father I entered a whole new world .
In my new function as a grandmother all comes together to the MAX .
My experience as a mother and as a teacher in a whole new dimension.
So far so good.
I could have graduate in ADJUSTING with honors
But I never was very good in taking care of myself . Taking care of others was my first always.
So , being on my own I started to believe I did not take care of myself very well and by adjusting I did not make my own choices in life .
That a sad thought..... How could that be my life ? I could not believe that would be the outcome !
So I did not give up and "studied" this new fase and challenge and was determined to not give up on myself .
And than life started to bring me new lessons . At first I did not notice them as lessons . To be honest for a while I was thinking all went wrong !
That's a whole other way of looking
And than things started to change .
I began to see "lights" ......
I had clear moments .
I developed my own kind of therapy
Knitting , just to see what the colors did next to one another. Just to knit .
And thanks to my newest way of blogging on my IPhone I can finally add my own pictures in my text .
Endlessly coloring for harmony and joy
I draw the forms with gold and than color them .
Not for showing but just for me .made my head at peace.
And my third therapy
Making little garlands from felt-hearts also to be busy with my hands and enjoying the happy colors .
Also just for myself but garlands have to hang free and so I could no longer hide my process .
I send some garlands all over the world to blog friends
Doing all of that the thoughts in my head and the memories found new ways to bring peace in my mind .
I was so used to keep much for myself because I had to do it myself as a single mother of four and than the walls started to crumble and I had to learn to involve others in my process. I had to learn to ask for help and accept help .
(If you would like to have one I gladly send you one or as many as you like )
My life as a mother
My dream was happily ever married
It changed when he left us
And I had to be so much braver than I ever imagined
I am slowly getting there
Being the grandmother of Eva makes my life such a joy ❤️
Happy blogging to all of you