vrijdag 14 oktober 2016

Autumn treasures


Come little leaves
said the wind one day
come to the meadows
with me and play :
put on your dresses 
of red and gold ,
for summer is past
and the days grow cold.

George Cooper

and another  autumn arrived.
It's been a while since I was here.
It's never because I do not want 
to write a new blog .
Maybe it is because I like
it most to write about processes.
about development , progress ,
and that's not always simple.
For example .....  interior-design
 and gardening are
subjects I love to READ about .
but I am not an expert to write about it .

I do love to tell and share about 
how I search in  life .

This autumn I realise how I have grown 
I still think about it as my new life.
The life being retired from work 
( kindergartenteacher at a Waldorf school )
the life living on my own since 
my four children grew up and left the house

I can say now , afterwards 
It's been a lot !
maybe that's the reason why there was so much
that needed attention , afterwards .
the greatest  gift has been that 
there was TIME ..... lots of time .
In my previous blog I told about 
the things I have been doing 
to keep creative , busy .

While my hands were making colorful beauty
my head could organise a lot and
 was able to let go .....

Meanwhile I have also been very busy as
a grandmother .
My new and wonderful activity....
My one and only grandchild keeps me busy.
In being a grandmother all seems to come
together .
my experience as a mother and a teacher .
on a whole new level .
much more in harmony .
It shows me who I am and have always been .
I always thought I did what I did
because I had to .
I had to do my best , as a mother and as a teacher.
But I did not realize 
how much I did it my way .

That's really a bit sad ....afterwards 
but that's how it was .
So..... in this part I had a lot to make up for .
Going through my house
and ordening all I kept ......
was very therapeutic .

Another thing that happened and
is very important now is :
Blogging , Facebook Pinterest Instagram
New digital ways to connect .
It is a wonderful way to get to know yourself 
in new ways .

I am still very much a BOOKperson.
Love to buy a book that helps me ....
guides me to learn and understand more.

My latest gain has a very original 
layout and I found out 
I love that too
it's called 

by Ella Luna

hope you are all in good places 
wishing you well


zondag 5 juni 2016

Song of my heart


dip into
your own soul.
find your own truth.
what calls to your heart ?
what moves your spirit ?
make your life dance
to the song of your own essence .

I guess I am a process person
and I like to try to find words for the process
called ...... writing .

I spend a lot of time thinking and searching 
I spend a lot of time re-living the past 
For a good purpose ....
 To learn and understand 
and go on .
That is a good thing , for me .

I learn a lot , 
about myself 
about how I survived
about the choices I made 
(Had to make )
and I am doing this 
ordening my house, my things
re-reading my notebooks , letters , postcards 
and notes .

Just thinking is not my thing
I have to be creative with my hands   
and than there is ordening in my head .

A while ago I saw a heart-garland 
on pinterest.
and I started by making one myself .

Being creative and using
beautiful materials and bright colors
always makes me happy 

And than I made another-one and 
anotherone and I started to hang them 
in my house .
I used golden yarn and very little 
glass beads because 
I am fascinated by the moving and the glittering 
of the garlands .

making things always makes me happy
and I always get inspired and find new ideas.
other ways , other things to use ......
I am not a shopping-girl and 
I always look in my own house 
because there is more than enough here.
when the little beads were used,
I used beads from bracelets and chains .

and I started to use little cuttings of 
the beautiful colorful felt pieces that were
leftovers after cutting the hearts .

and so I devaloped my own unique 
heartgarlands .

it's always about 
being busy , making things.......
that make ME happy .
You can imagen that there comes a point 
when there are too many garlands ......
and than I decided to send them by mail
to friends ......
just a little thank-you for being my friend .
they are easy to send by mail .

if , by the way , you are reading this,
and you like to have one 
let me know !

and than I got a present from a friend
who lives in France ......

I started to use in my garlands too !

and than my daugther ,
who always brings me the wonderful , colorful felt 
asked if she could try to sell the garlands
she likes to be creative too
in her own time
( She works at Waldorfschools
with dyslexic children )
once a year they have fairs at Waldorf schools
and she has her own stall !

she bought a larger size of
matchboxes when she was in France
(we do not have those in Holland )
and we now use the empty boxes for
the heartgarlands .
of course after giving the boxes a make-over .

people realy buy them !
for themselves
or as presents .....

When my granddaugther
is with me 
she loves to help
and play 

With all my hearts
I wish you all well


maandag 18 april 2016

to plant a garden is to believe in tomorrow - audrey hepburn


to plant 
a garden
in tomorrow.

Audrey Hpburn .

in my previous blogpost
it was all about
my RED wall
in my bedroom.
and even more about how
it works for me.
to imagen something ......

I am pretty GOOD in thinking in 
(long story )
but my life has changed
for the best and now
my head has to work along too.

Making a moodboard
is something that can help !
Pinterest is a wonderful place
to collect images.

My garden has become a strange place
for me .
I seem to be un-able
to make it the garden I wish , again.

as I seem un-able
to find purpose in my life as it is now.

and than I decided
to start AGAIN 
making my garden a garden .

as I started wishing for 
the RED wall
not so long ago
and that worked out very well.

is the perfect season 
and sunshine a good
companion .

and my  granddaugther
the best help ever .

not only do I hope for a garden
I  do hope to find more 

everything comes to you
in the right moment
be patient
be grateful


donderdag 18 februari 2016

it's working ........THE PLAN


Oh I am so over the moon HAPPY
My plan is working .
On Saterday my son and daugther-in-law
called me and asked 
if I would like to join them
They were on their way to the 
to look for wallpaper
for Eva's room
and they knew I was looking for
R E D wallpaint 
would I like to go TOGETHER ?
yes yes yes
of course!
I found the color I would love to buy
from Histor called "cranberry"
They mix that in the store
very exciting ...... for me !
from my son and daugther-in-law

S U R P R I S E 
we went home
to my home
 and they stayed for dinner
and my daugther came too
so we had the room filled with JOY .
my daugther send me a message
she wanted to come to me
PAINT the wall 
if that was allright with me 

Are you serious ?
of course I was allrigth 
she is a wonderful at decorating her own house
and in painting walls 
and she is young !

all I had to do is 
make tea and lunch 
and wait ...... downstairs ........
I heard music and singing 
and allready loved it 
my room would love it too !

I choose a shining wallpaint 

and than THE MOMENT was there
I was allowed to come and see

tears in my eyes SO BEAUTIFUL 
it was beyond my dreams 
I loved it ( still do )
And I love my daugther for his 

now the next step
the frames ..........

it's  not done
it's in progress

love my PLAN .............

zaterdag 30 januari 2016

happy red


it all started with a wish
my wish 
to have my wall in my bedroom
R E D 
by the image above
to do something
really DO it 
by myself
from start to finish
for myself 
is what I am not good at ...
for sommeone else , no problem
for myself ..............

the plan 
it started with knowing
I have to  have a plan
with a beginning ....
 a middle and 
an end .

than I visited someone
who suffers from depressions
and I saw how her life was
and all the possibilities she has
but was  not able to use
and I realised
I had to take my own first step 
make my own plan
when I got home
I started by finding inspiring
images on my pinterest board
and the one above
is my color-inspiration

I saw this

offered these for sale
on facebook 
all in one sale 
I knew 
I had to have them
I immediately had an idea
how to use them
on my red wall 
 my project was born
when I reacted on facebook 
I could have them and
it turned out 
it was only 5 minutes from my house !

I never do something like this 
react on such a thing
and going to get them MYSELF 
for me
it was a HUGE step .

next step is going to the store
and have my own RED colour mixed.
it has to be a warm red 
with a kind of orange touch 
so I am thinking of
 having some orange too
 and decide by myself
 to use that across eachother 
Now you know I am NOT a handyman !

I have this idea
for "my" frames to collect things
I love and put them in the frames 
as .... pictures
but also words or sentences
well I better show you 
when it's done .
the colours will be 
red*orange*pink*bit yellow
and G O L D .

today I saw for the first time 
work from an Italian artist 
named Arianna Caroli 
it was a You Tube movie
and I LOVED IT .
I do not know how to show it
overhere so I just let you know 
how it is called 
and you can maybe see for yourself 

L'Officiel Thailand - Culture 
"Art is Forever"
by Arianne Caroli.

work in progress
I am excited 


woensdag 20 januari 2016

the magic of circles


let us be grateful
to people who make us HAPPY
they are the charming
who make our SOULS blossom .

Marcel Proust

when I was young
I loved to read and
I loved to draw
I loved PAPER and it's magic

when nothing was there and
everything was possible.

being a child there was a  while
when I believed
all was possible
because there were not yet 
experiences of "making mistakes"

when children make drawings
most people will love the drawings and
give complements 
and are grateful .

there is something magical
in the drawings of young children
something with the colors they use
the space they use on the paper

when I was young I had crayons
and that was it .
I always always draw HOUSES
I loved to make houses .
first houses without walls 
where you could see the inside
than closed houses with friendly windows
and always a door with an opening
for the mail !
and later I draw my own blueprints
and floorplans .
always imagening the house .....

when I got older 
very soon we had to learn to adjust 
to draw how the teacher told us to do .
in my time there was NO room for 
creativity in drawing at school .
it was all 
class-teaching and there was no room
for individuals
to servive it was best to fit in
to fit in and be good , better , best .

that's how it was .
I stopped drawing .

when I became a kindergarten teacher 
I loved the drawings all over again 
and than I came into contact with
and knew this would be my 'home'.

I started this post about
people who make you happy .
I guess for me it's been about children
they make me happy 
the children in my classes
my own four children
there is my grandchild ......

of course I found
wonderful people on my way
who made and make me happy
charming gardeners 
who make my soul happy.

it's not easy to find the words
to describe where I am in my life
let's say 
I know about the house
and it's time to work the garden


donderdag 31 december 2015

* * the plan * *


It's not that I know
what this means
i am going to find out !
I need a goal , a plan

so I will go and make myself 
a plan .
My plan is to make a plan .

I like that idea
I will create my own plan .

new year

I will be blogging
about my PLAN