If only......

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In the weeks before

CHRISTMAS

when so much was

changed in our lifes

I longed for

just watching a movie

in the evening

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Watching a movie

can be so comforting

( for  me it is )

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I did not know why

but

I wanted to see

YOU'VE GOT MAIL

I believed the film

was in my house

somewhere

and I started to look

EVERYWHERE

but no no no

nowhere

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the longer it took

the harder I wanted to see it

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So I was in the store

to buy one

but again not to be found

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the longer it took

the harder I realy wanted

to see this movie

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I asked everyone

and than my daugther Anna said

we do have the movie

but on video

and we cannot watch video's

anymore

because we watch dvd's now

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oh oh oh

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I gave up

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Next year !

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and than

yesterday

my girls went to the hospital

because Elisabeth

had to have an echo

because she is going

to have her eggs harvested

to be frozen.

and after the hospital/echo

they went for lunch

and

they found me

YOU'VE GOT MAIL

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and

I watched

and oh that feels

comforting

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All will be well for us too !

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If only .....

all was behind us

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we have faith

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