confused

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Go on ?

or stop ?

share ?

or not ?

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I loved blogging

since I started .

and I still do .

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It's easy to share

HAPPINESS

and 

all the comments

and connections

bring so much 

JOY

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but now 

something happened

in my family

and I do have to share

so you know

why I am not here

as much as I wanted

and also 

why I cannot share

just happy images

and joyful words

at the moment

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My middle sister

was diagnosed

with longcancer

two weeks ago

and it's very very bad.

She already had a bad health

because of longemphysema

and now this .

because of her weekness

there can be nothing done anymore

so 

within two weeks

she

and her family

and we 

her brother and sisters

had to deal with A LOT

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all has been talked about

all arrangements have been made

she declines by day

*

today

she is moving

to a hospitium

Her own wish

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I still cannot believe

this is happening

We , my brother and other sister

and me had a long meeting

to share and talk about

all what's to be done

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Of course I have also

my own children

who are suddenly

about to loose

a very sweet aunt

They also have their grief

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Now you know

why I cannot be

blogging

the way I prefere 

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I must admit 

it is also a very special time

we are sharing as a family

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My sister always

loved the sky by night

always watching the stars 

now she is leaving us soon

to be one herself