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SURPRISES

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my children

asked me to leave 

my house

for a day

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no questions

to be asked

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and you know

WHAT ?

They painted my livingroom
all the walls and the ceiling 
all beautiful warm white

*
new start 
MADE WITH LOVE 
heartwarming LOVE

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and now
 I am SO ENJOYING
every minute 
sitting in my new
 clean and BRIGHT
room 

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feeling all their 
LOVE
for me !

*
I hope 
you all
are loved too

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The JOY of letting go .....

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Is 

NOTHING

 really

 NOTHING ?

N O - T H I N G 

Is

 EMPTY

 really

 EMPTY ?

I guess it comes with my age

I am aware of the importance

of

LETTING GO .

So far nothing new

were it not

I have been saving things

for a far too long time.

and now

a lot is changing

FOR THE BEST 

I never could let go 

easily

( hey I am also a Scorpion )

and so I kept 

the PAST in all kind of stuff

For a long long time

I believed 

LETTING GO

was all about 

THE PAST 

And now 

a true miracle happened

now I SEE AND I KNOW

letting go

is all about 

THE FUTURE 

It's just the same

with all the stuff

It's taking a lot of space

and by letting go

NEW SPACE APPEARS

and not only that

the new space 

is there 

for what the future

will bring

NOW I realise

how

enjoying the nothing

the emptiness

is

of the greatest importance

because

I am beginning 

to hear

my own voice

Maybe you now think

what is she talking about

( writing about )

but to me 

the most amazing things

are happening

and 

I will tell you 

ALL about it 

soon

but for now

I am busy

clearing-up my life

and

I never thought

that could be

such a JOYFULL

thing to do

I am dancing

and

making a lot of space

for the future 

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my-wish-for-you

Quilt strolls on moonlit nights

a playgrounds endless laughter

blooming roses in the spring

the glow the morning after

walking barefoot in the grass

a poem that makes you cry

the feel of silk upon your skin

an eagle when it flies

love songs on the radio

old couples holding hands

new born kittens nursing

enthusiastic fans

sitting on a porch swing

sipping lemonade

admiring the beauty

in all that God has made

watching for a shooting star

a breeze that cools things down

the first snow of winter

a night out of town

little acts of kindness

a loving word or two

simple things to treasure

these things I wish for you

author unknkown

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Just to wish you all

some musing time

sitting with your coffee

or tea

and doing nothing

just let it be 

I will do that too 

and who knows

somewhere in time and space

our thoughts can meet 

*

in my heart

*

How about you ?

are you aware of

what's in YOUR heart ?

.

I told you about 

my friend

who has received

NEW LONGS

and got a new chance 

to live longer

before the operation

I was thinking more  and more

about how my life would be

without my friend

and that thought made me

sad very very sad.

Growing older

loosing people

becomes more and more

reality 

At first I could only think

about the lost

and the missing

I know 

since the operation

all has changed

but 

something else has changed too

By letting in my feelings

and taking myself seriously

something 

wonderful happened

I realised 

the people you have 

closed in your heart

they stay there

for ever 

I carry their heart

with me

I carry it 

in my heart 

I know that 

now

better than before 

Happy new week 

to all of you 

*

Oma Muize

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I love EVA

my granddaughter

She is now 20 months of age

and  she talks ......

I love MAILEG mice 

I have three of them

Two living in this box

and 
on my last birthday
the right one
came to live with me

In dutch they are called
MUIZEN
MUIS (if it's one )

sometimes
when Eva is with me
we call them 
we sind a song
and go and find out
if they are AWAKE
and willing to play with us 

We love to play with them
and than
one day
when she was at home
and her mother said
they were going to visit me
Eva said

OMA MUIZE

and that's what she calls me
oma muize 

That's my Valentine Love Story
for you today 

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it just fits ........

*

It just fits

into

this empty place

in your heart .....

After reading those words

found them while

pinteresting

...................

I was amazed

again

by

what a few words

can say ... can do ...

THIS EMPTY PLACE

IN YOUR HEART

and something

fits in 

*

I am still

IN BETWEEN

an old life

and a new one

the old one

is very far away 

that is my married life 

20 years ago !

and than there was 

this life as a single parent

with four children

and a full-time

teaching job

and than two years 

of not being able to work 

anymore

and having to let go

this amazing job

as a kindergartenteacher

and also 

adjusting to lots of pain...

and 

in the same time

my two last staying at home

children 

moved out 

and there I was

in this house 

with the empty rooms

and an empty agenda

and an empty life 

*

at first it only was

all of that 

I simply could not think

about 

THE FUTURE

what future ?

I was not a mother 

of children in my house

anymore

I was not a teacher anymore

I was completely LOST

*

Thanks to my very special

Blogfriends

I was belonging somewhere

in this space

between reality and 

what was to come ....

*

because

by blogging

I was discouvering

a whole new part of ME

All those amzing inspiring

women all over the world

sharing so much

and being there for

EACHOTHER

*

SURPRISING

me in the mail

with the most heartwarming

packets

*

bringing me

new friendship

and also 

SPACE

by thinking worldwide !

letting me know

I was good

just the way I was

*

and so I could go

to accept

and  mourn about the lost 

of my work 

and lots of other stuf

I put away somewhere

because I was too busy

SURVIVING

with my children 

*

I dealed with a lot

in the past two years

and now 

it's like this WINTER

it's like 

all is done and waiting

to flourish like SPRING 

*

it feels like 

I have so much space

inside me now

and I cannot wait

for all that's to come

all the new chances

all the TIME

the peace and the space

*

I guess that is 

very new too

to have 

PEACE

OF MIND

working so hard 

for so many years

was 

busy busy busy

always busy

*

And

now

I enjoy

having TIME

*

I have find out

how important it is

TO BE

in the moment

to feel what's to be felt

and to own that

and than ........

move on 

*

It's an amazing journey

and the light is shining in now

It feels like 

SPRINGCLEANING

my life

and I also

count all my blessing

I can see clearly now

much more

in PEACE

and with great gratitude

how

ALL OF IT

has brought me

where I am

HERE AND NOW

*

LOOKING FORWARD

to all that's coming

to me

in the future

and will fit in

*

I hope 

you are doing well

on your journey

let's share

and be here

for each-other

You 

are 

in my HEART 

*

white

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as much as I love 

COLOURS

I have never loved

WHITE

more as the past time 

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THE FIRST OF ALL COLORS

IS WHITE

WE SHALL SET DOWN

WHITE

FOR THE REPRESENTATIVE

OF LIGHT,

WITHOUT WHICH 

NO COLOR CAN BE SEEN ;

leonardo da vinci

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wish you 

all

JOY 

*

colours

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The purest 

and most thoughtful

MINDS

are those

wich

LOVE COLOUR

the most

John Ruskin

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I am a clear-bright-colour fan

absolutely LOVE

bright colours

they always make me

HAPPY

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Hope your weekend

may be colourful

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