donderdag 10 april 2014



today it's april 10
the year is 2014
I am living my life now for
23170 days

you might expect
it's all perfectly okay 
I am older and wiser
my children left the house
for a while now
I no longer have to work
got two new hips 
there is this missing point
the point of 
the meaning of all of it
for the future

in younger days
all was cristalclear

I wanted to be a teacher
I wished  children of my own
a family and a husband
all came true
and as a mother of four
there was so much to enjoy
the house was always alive
and I learned so much .
from 1992 I had to do it
all by myself 
my family and
 a fulltime job as a teacher
That was hard and special at the same time
surviving was the theme

I survived
and now I am on this 
whole new journey
finding my new way
in a life
I am living for allready
23170 days
so there is also a lot
of reorganising
a lot of ordening and 
every new day 
brings me presents
from the past

I am not done with this
just started 
because my hands are free more and more
because I can stand on my own legs
more and more
so I am finding my new way
through my own house
and my own stuf
my past
into my future
This is my new job now
the most important job
and I am enjoying it .
I work for myself now!
I work at home now !

the support of you all
my blog-friends
has been and still is 
of the greatest importance
you all belong to my future
that's for sure

so if you miss me overhere
it's because I am traveling
not THE world
but MY world
I am getting there .....
watch me !

wish you all


4 opmerkingen:

  1. Like you, I feel as if I am learning a new world, this world of retirement. It is so different that leaving the house daily for a job. It will be a year in June and I still feel as if I don't know what I am doing.

    Just enjoy each day.

  2. I have missed your correspondence, but at least I have a feeling as to why I haven't heard from you. I wish you the best of surprises my dearest Francis. I am home now for three days, sick with severe dizziness (vertigo) and I am not able to bounce and run around as I just did on Sunday. Suddenly, I am unstable, having to hold on to things....I too am sitting here only able to focus on my computer, which is a good thing. I will write, and hopefully get some work done for a magazine I am now writing for. We find those corners and niches of our lives where we can explode with energy, and I pray you find your place. You have come such a long way. Big hugs dearest Francis; I hope you still think of me! Anita

  3. Enjoy your journey, you have earnt it!

  4. I think we go through different stages in our lives, Francis, and right now you are discovering new and wonderful things in your world. I am here along the way, and thinking of you often.

    It is Easter on Sunday, and what a glorious day that will be.