donderdag 10 april 2014

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today it's april 10
the year is 2014
I am living my life now for
23170 days

you might expect
it's all perfectly okay 
I am older and wiser
my children left the house
for a while now
I no longer have to work
got two new hips 
"body-lift"
and
yet
there is this missing point
the point of 
the meaning of all of it
and
above
all
for the future

in younger days
all was cristalclear

I wanted to be a teacher
I wished  children of my own
a family and a husband
all came true
and as a mother of four
there was so much to enjoy
the house was always alive
and I learned so much .
from 1992 I had to do it
all by myself 
my family and
 a fulltime job as a teacher
That was hard and special at the same time
surviving was the theme

I survived
and now I am on this 
whole new journey
finding my new way
in a life
I am living for allready
23170 days
so there is also a lot
of reorganising
a lot of ordening and 
A LOT OF SURPRISING
because
every new day 
brings me presents
from the past

I am not done with this
just started 
because my hands are free more and more
because I can stand on my own legs
more and more
so I am finding my new way
through my own house
and my own stuf
transforming
my past
into my future
This is my new job now
the most important job
and I am enjoying it .
I work for myself now!
I work at home now !

the support of you all
my blog-friends
has been and still is 
of the greatest importance
you all belong to my future
that's for sure

so if you miss me overhere
it's because I am traveling
not THE world
but MY world
I am getting there .....
watch me !

wish you all
JOY and HAPPYNESS

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4 opmerkingen:

  1. Like you, I feel as if I am learning a new world, this world of retirement. It is so different that leaving the house daily for a job. It will be a year in June and I still feel as if I don't know what I am doing.

    Just enjoy each day.

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  2. I have missed your correspondence, but at least I have a feeling as to why I haven't heard from you. I wish you the best of surprises my dearest Francis. I am home now for three days, sick with severe dizziness (vertigo) and I am not able to bounce and run around as I just did on Sunday. Suddenly, I am unstable, having to hold on to things....I too am sitting here only able to focus on my computer, which is a good thing. I will write, and hopefully get some work done for a magazine I am now writing for. We find those corners and niches of our lives where we can explode with energy, and I pray you find your place. You have come such a long way. Big hugs dearest Francis; I hope you still think of me! Anita

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  3. Enjoy your journey, you have earnt it!

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  4. I think we go through different stages in our lives, Francis, and right now you are discovering new and wonderful things in your world. I am here along the way, and thinking of you often.

    It is Easter on Sunday, and what a glorious day that will be.

    love,
    ~Sheri

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