for all of you ........

*

The promise

in the flower-bulbs

this time of the year

always

is

an inspiration for me

*

I love the

grape hyacinths

*

wish I could send you all

a tray like this

*

So much is happening

overhere

so much I could not have

ever imagened

*

Elisabeth came home

from the hospital

and the collapsed lung

is well now .

She was so glad to be home !

*

and I was afraid

every day

because

she would loose her

beautiful long hair

*

and than

thursdaymorning

I came downstairs

for my morning coffee ! !

and there was a note .

( she always leaves me notes )

*

dear mommy

do not scare

but my hair is gone

and it's not so bad at all

*

I do not know how long I stood there

but finally I made my coffee..............

*

she was still sleeping

and I did not want to wake her

because she has trouble sleeping

each night .......

*

so I waited

and wondered

why was I so afraid

for this to happen

*

Elisabeth surprised me

each and every time

by her positive attitude

that's how she was and is

*

and than I heard footsteps

coming

and there she was

SMILING

and wearing a grey woollen hat.

*

when she noticed

it had begun

she called a friend

who is bold as bold can be

He always shaves his own head

and she asked him

to help her .

*

All this happened

in the night

while I was sleeping

*

and than she

did the hat off

and there she was

her face smiling

her eyes even more speaking

and

NO HAIR

bold as can be

*

I gave a kiss

on the top !

*

why was I so afraid

for this to happen

Here she was

telling it had been cold

in the night

on her head !

even wearing the hat !

*

She had been shopping

for cotton hat's

to wear at night

and found them

on the baby-section !

*

After showering she told me

she was done so much faster !

*

and I

I am so relieved

now we move foreward

and only have

five more chemo's

to go

*

I felt so helpless

the nights she was so sad

and crying for all her losts

her breast

her boyfriend/relation

so heartbroken

and no one could help her

she had to do that part

all on herself

*

but when the night is gone

and a new day arrived

she always is 

as bright as the new day 

*

the future 

is promissing 

as the grape hyacinths

*

for all of us 

*