vrijdag 6 januari 2012

make the day


*
SHE
is home
yesterday
was the first
CHEMO
*
SHE
is still sleeping
and I am having my
first coffee
*
SHE
did not wanted me
to go with her yesterday
Her best friend SONJA
went with her
and brought her home.
*
I'll never forget
the way my sweet beautiful girl
looked
when she came out of the car.
*
Mothers
are supposed
to be natural talents
and we are in a way
*
But why is it sometimes
so difficult
and
almost TOO hard ?
*
But
we cannot get more
than we can cope with
so
........
It's a new day
and we are HOME
and I am strong
and I can do it .
*
By the way
ELISABETH
is the one
who has to do it
*
when she was
3 years old
her tonsils
had to be removed
and after the operation
when she was home
and laying on the couch
3 years old
she had this look in her eyes
............
oh my ........
and
she did not speak
for a week
a whole week
*
We all were SO WORRIED ...
*
that's how she was....................
*
the evening
before the chemo
when I was
nauseous of fear
I suddenly became
very calm .
All of a sudden
I had this
realization
.
.
all the things I learned
from life
made me who I am today
and
of course I have to be there
for Elisabeth now
but
I know now
the biggest part will be
when all is over
and life begins anew for her....
*
Than
I have to be there
as her mother
to guide her finding herself again
Because I have known her
all her life
and I will be
visualising the future
even more promissing
for her
*
day
by
day
*





10 opmerkingen:

  1. Hallo Francis,
    Mijn hart gaat uit naar je, en naar je dochter natuurlijk. Wat is het op zulke momenten moeilijk om moeder te zijn en niets te kunnen doen. Echt, ik moet er niet aan denken dat een van mijn meiden zoiets overkomt... Ik vind je dochter zo dapper, maar ik vind jou ook ontzettend dapper, want JE BENT ER VOOR HAAR en dat is op dit moment het allerbelangrijkste...
    Ik wens jullie een heel goede dag en weekend,
    Lieve groet,
    Mirjam

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  2. Lieve Francis, wat een mooie post heb je gemaakt, ik denk aan je en aan je dochter. Meer kan ik even niet zeggen, heel heel veel sterkte nu en zeker straks, lieve groet

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  3. Oh how true this is my darling friend. I just came from a blog, a DUTCH BLOG, where I told the dear friend to have a GOOD NEW YEAR, DAY BY DAY. That is all we can do. We cannot live in the past, we don't know what the future holds, but we CAN live TODAY. You are a wonderful mother and your E. will always remember your being by her side.

    MUCH LOVE TO BOTH OF YOU! Anita

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  4. Francis,
    This is a beautiful story about motherhood, LOVE, and the inner strength that you and your daughter have. I just want to take this note and keep it forever. I am honored to have met such special women in my life. A big hug to you and Elisabeth.
    ~Sheri at Red Rose Alley

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  5. What a blessing you are to Elisabeth ....your mother's heart will find the strength to get through this....I send your sweet Elisabeth strength in my prayers today...you keep doing what you are doing...being there for her...you are doing an amazing job. Hugs and love always.

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  6. Lieve Francis,
    Mooie woorden, wat een steun ben jij voor haar!
    Heel veel sterkte.
    Liefs
    Lia

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  7. My precious Francis,

    I was able to quickly peek at my blog comments today while I was at school, ON MY BREAK....but only able to come now after dinner while everything is so quiet. My heart goes out to you and your BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER...she is so pretty. EVERYONE IN YOUR FAMILY IS PRETTY!!! Oh my, Vanessa is SO BEAUTIFUL and little Eva and her papa are just stunning as well. We are here for you precious, we are here. All will be well because there is something GREATER than us all that keeps all things in check for OUR GOOD.

    WE LOVE YOU FRANCIS!!! Anita

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  8. (((hug))) remember on this journey, that you and your daughter are on, you can only do it one day at a time, that's it.....today...
    Much love to you both....
    Rena

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  9. Dear Francis, I found you through Sheri's blog (Red Rose Alley). Just as I was about to sign off for the evening, wondering yet again about the greater purpose of my blogging, there you were mentioning your difficult day. Please know that I am honored to pray for many blogging friends and I will now include you, Elisabeth, and all your loved ones. I have a profound compassion for the heart of a mother. Do not hesitate to write any time you like.
    Much love,
    Marcia
    oneheartathome@yahoo.com

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  10. My prayers are with your dear family

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