make the day

*

SHE

is home

yesterday

was the first

CHEMO

*

SHE

is still sleeping

and I am having my

first coffee

*

SHE

did not wanted me

to go with her yesterday

Her best friend SONJA

went with her

and brought her home.

*

I'll never forget

the way my sweet beautiful girl

looked

when she came out of the car.

*

Mothers

are supposed

to be natural talents

and we are in a way

*

But why is it sometimes

so difficult

and

almost TOO hard ?

*

But

we cannot get more

than we can cope with

so

........

It's a new day

and we are HOME

and I am strong

and I can do it .

*

By the way

ELISABETH

is the one

who has to do it

*

when she was

3 years old

her tonsils

had to be removed

and after the operation

when she was home

and laying on the couch

3 years old

she had this look in her eyes

............

oh my ........

and

she did not speak

for a week

a whole week

*

We all were SO WORRIED ...

*

that's how she was....................

*

the evening
before the chemo

when I was

nauseous of fear

I suddenly became

very calm .

All of a sudden

I had this

realization

.

.

all the things I learned

from life

made me who I am today

and

of course I have to be there

for Elisabeth now

but

I know now

the biggest part will be

when all is over

and life begins anew for her....

*

Than

I have to be there

as her mother

to guide her finding herself again

Because I have known her

all her life

and I will be

visualising the future

even more promissing

for her

*

day

by

day

*