dinsdag 17 januari 2012

something new ....

Pushpin polisher

Today someone told me
I have to
my options
if being a teacher
is no longer an option

the lady
with all her forms
had to fill in

So she said
I have to fill in
three options
even when it's
( punaise-poetser in dutch )
at the end
when I was on my way home
with a huge headache
smiled and smiled and
I thought
I can start my own webshop
with the cutest pushpins
of the whole world
Hi hi
never the less
 I do have to reconsider
that makes me so sad
that all I can think
All I want is to be healthy

Why oh why
is all this happening
with Elisabeth
and with me
Why cannot things be
as they were  ?
I know
but not today
okay ?

8 opmerkingen:

  1. I wish I had the answers for you....all of them, the fact is nobody knows really...maybe it's so that you will have every moment with dear sweet Elisabeth, to guide her in healing....so many miles between us, and I know it would not make any problems disappear, but I wish I could give you a hug. Please know you are loved Francis......and if you did open a web-push pin shop....I would buy some!!!! =) xxxxxx

  2. Sending you warm hugs. It is all so unfair. And I wish I could be more helpful. Sometimes it takes huge changes to bring about an even better future, even when we can't see that yet.

    I wish you much wellness and am thinking of you often,

  3. Oh sweet one...no rush no rush...all will work out...I soooo like what lillalotta wrote above about it taking a huge change to make things brighter!
    Sending you both all my love dear one...and do watch at MOVIE...it had your name written all over it! xoxoxoxo

  4. Had to come back with this my friend ....found a quote for you today.....
    "I haven't a clue as to how my story will end.
    But that's all right.
    When you set out on a journey and night covers
    the road,
    that's when you discover the stars."
    {Nancy Willard}


  5. Francis,
    I'm so sorry you are going through all of this, but I always believe it will get better. I did a Faith post yesterday. Please come by and see it when you get a chance...I think it will make you feel better, my sweet friend. I do believe life will get better for you, as you are a beautiful soul with a sincere heart, and you have many dreams and hopes. Your day will come, and my day will come too. Love you, love you,
    ~Sheri at Red Rose Alley

  6. Hallo Francis,
    Ik zou ook de antwoorden wel willen hebben voor je, maar ja, die heb ik niet... Ik geloof er niet in dat alles een reden heeft, dat maakt niemand mij wijs. Soms is het gewoon niet eerlijk allemaal. Maar houd hoop, blijf alsjeblieft positief, dat maakt het alledaagse gewoon wat draaglijker...
    Het is al moeilijk genoeg. Het gedichtje van Koralee hierboven vind ik prachtig mooi... Op een gegeven moment zie je hoe je verder kunt...
    Lieve groet,

  7. It's okay to allow yourself to feel all that you are feeling, Francis. It's even okay to not do a thing as long as you like because the only thought that consumes you is health. It's okay, dear Francis, allow yourself to rest and to feel.
    Warm regards and sincere concern and prayers continued.

  8. My darling friend,

    I am so late in coming. I have been busy with this job called TEACHING. I on the other hand wish I could just leave it. I want to do my art and writing full time, but that is just a dream. So many of us want to do these types of things, but reality always has a way of setting in! You are in my heart...Anita