souls

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Happy 

weekend

to 

you

and you

all of you 

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OKAY ......

*

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okay

I am ready

I will do the whole 

thing

once again.

I am going to 

a neurologist 

That's good 

Because this time 

it's ME who wants to know 

I have to explain 

Before this 

the circumstances

made me follow a path 

and I went to doctors

and specialists

I did all that

because everybody

expected that from me 

Now 

after being at home now

for two and a half years

and getting worse and worse

now

finally

I feel 

responcible

for myself

now I want to know

now I can really say 

this is too hard , too much .

Yeah 

sounds

strange 

I KNOW !

but 

I can be really 

HAPPY 

about this .

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happy weekend

dear blog friends 

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and all that you are ......

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Obstacles

lots and lots of obstacles

on my way .

That is not new

What new is 

is ME 

I am changing 

I am learning

to see different

Something inside of me 

is growing 

No longer a teacher

no longer my children in my house

JUST ME 

no longer taking care

of others lots of others 

but taking care of ME

believe in myself ?

and all that I am ?

is there something INSIDE

of me ?

that is greater

than any obstacle ?

I believe so !

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miss my wings

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GRACE

is what picks me up

and lifts my WINGS 

high above 

and 

I FLY !

GRACE 

always conquers !

Be graceful

in everything

in anger

in sadness

in joy

in unkindness

retain

GRACE

with you

C. JoyBell C.

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I miss my wings 

I cannot do what I would like to 

*

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I am doing well

I have learned so much 

in the past two years

and I own my life 

now

more than ever 

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that is what I am doing

every day 

I am sad sometimes

for not being able to walk like I used to

for having pain all day 

But I am happy too

because I own my life now

I FEEL now

I learn to let it be .

I miss my wings

but I cherish the memory

*

enjoy your wings 

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old and new

*

All that is GOLD

does not glitter 

not all those who WANDER

are LOST

The old that is STRONG

does not WITHER

deep ROOTS are not reached

by the FROST

from the ASHES

a FIRE shall be woken

a LIGHT from the shadows

shall spring

RENEWED shall be blade

that was BROKEN

The crownless AGAIN 

shall be KING

J.R.R. Tolkien

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I am learning

to have patience

Things take time

I have to ask for help more

and OH I am NOT GOOD

at that at all

old things

new things

old habbits

new ways

old points of view

new ones

Making the best of it 

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what makes me HAPPY

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LET 

NO 

ONE

EVER

COME

TO

YOU

WITHOUT

LEAVING

H A P P I E R

mother teresa

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this picture

from pinterest

made me smile

this is what makes me happy

I do things like this 

too !

happy new week 

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a glimps .....

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A glimps 

of my new garden

Can you see my little

frog-prince

wearing his crown

sitting on his golden ball 

He is now waiting 

on top of the fence

untill there is a place

that suits him more 

The large colander

comes from the hotel

my parents had

long ago 

I love to have 

beautiful thing 

hanging on my fences

That is what I can do

in this stadium of my

garden-make-over 

Have a happy 

weekend 

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JOURNEY

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If we are always

arriving and departing

it is also true

that we are 

eternally anchored

one's destination

is never a place

but rather a new way

of looking at things.

Henry Miller

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a new way 

of looking at things

I never knew

how powerful

that can be

IF

it's your very own

wish and decision.

and not just because

someone else

askes you to 

When did you really

change your way of looking

You do not have to tell me

but it would make me 

very happy if you would

take time

with a cup of tea or coffee

and sit down and 

think about this .

happy thinking 

*

my granddaughter EVA

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my new garden

is 

a true gift

of my new life 

The first time

I went in the garden

with Eva

we both were so happy

For her little feet 

the garden is a whole new world

For my eyes

and my heart 

the garden is a PRESENT

beyond dreams

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