* This sunday-morning
the world is calm and
finally all that has happened
last week has found a place
in my heart and soul
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I always need quiet time
to think things over and
write it down .
*
When I see the words on the paper
as they came to me
it is as if the story tells itselfs
from deep inside .
*
By writing the words get meaning
and the meaning finds the words
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I looked forward to see my son as a father
for the first time .
Thinking about that moment
it was like in the movies
you now ....slow-motion ......with all the details ..
I would see everything and hear everything
and be in that precious moment
to never forget
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Well I can tell you
the only similarity with a movie-experience
is
I can look it all over in my mind
trying to see more and more details
like when you see a movie over and over
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And what I had been looking forward
.........to see........
already happened of course
before we were there
when his little girl came into the world .
I already was and still am his mother
But now I am the mother of him-as-a-father.
He made me a grandmother .
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Little Eva is born in the middle of the night .
When we were driving to the hospital
in the middle of the night
it seemed like the world was uninhabitated
No-one on the highway ..........
*
We were the only ones on our way
to meet little Eva .
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Near the hospital all was deserted ..........
and the night was wrapped around us .
for the new story of the new-born star .
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She is so beautiful
were the first words of her father.
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and
she
is
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