* * happy * *

*

why

are 

quite

simple

things

not 

simple

*

when I would be

all on my own

in the middle of 

nowhere

I think 

I would be good in 

see things 

simple

*

but 

I was not alone

with my children

and my fulltime job

being a single mom

surviving

*

so much happening

 things were not simple

*

all has changed

no more children

in my house living

no more job

*

I know

you know

why do I keep 

repeating it

over

 and 

over

 and 

over 

again

*

I think it is 

because I am lost 

and I am realy 

trying to keep on track

and 

in this being lost

I learned a lot about 

myself 

I am realy 

PIGHEADED

and

STUBBORN

I want to do all on myself

on my own

I want to find out myself 

not only find out how

but most of all why ?

so

I do not ask for help

and so I am wandering

a lot 

and I am lost 

a lot 

but I always had

my children to take care of 

and my job to do 

that was something else

but 

in taking care

of ME

well 

I am learning now 

I am trying to

and all is so much more

SIMPLE

than I ever imagened 

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