donderdag 4 juli 2013

* * happy * *




*
why
are 
quite
simple
things
not 
simple

*
when I would be
all on my own
in the middle of 
nowhere
I think 
I would be good in 
see things 
simple

*
but 
I was not alone
with my children
and my fulltime job
being a single mom
surviving

*
so much happening
 things were not simple

*
all has changed
no more children
in my house living
no more job

*
I know
you know
why do I keep 
repeating it
over
 and 
over
 and 
over 
again

*
I think it is 
because I am lost 
and I am realy 
trying to keep on track
and 
in this being lost
I learned a lot about 
myself 

I am realy 
PIGHEADED
and
STUBBORN
I want to do all on myself
on my own
I want to find out myself 
not only find out how
but most of all why ?
so
I do not ask for help
and so I am wandering
a lot 
and I am lost 
a lot 
but I always had
my children to take care of 
and my job to do 

that was something else

but 
in taking care
of ME

well 
I am learning now 
I am trying to

and all is so much more
SIMPLE
than I ever imagened 

*



4 opmerkingen:

  1. Lieve Francis,
    Ga het goed?
    Je bent een geweldig mens!
    Je bent er voor iedereen, dus.......
    OOK voor jezelf!!!!!!
    Doorgaan hoor, je bent op het goede pad dus stap voor stap......
    Als ik iets voor je kan doen????
    Heel veel liefs
    LIA

    BeantwoordenVerwijderen
  2. Komt goed hoor, stap voor stap....lieve groet

    BeantwoordenVerwijderen
  3. When are children are growing up, we don't get so much time to understand ourselves - it is about them and our work. As "grown ups" and "empty nesters", it is all about us, but we have put ourselves on the back burner, it is hard to figure out what we want, who we are, and where we are going.

    Enjoy your journey to finding who Francis is and who Francis wants to br.

    BeantwoordenVerwijderen
  4. You are the most important person now. You have loved your children and helped them be who they are, confident strong young people who can look after themselves. It is your time now!

    BeantwoordenVerwijderen