a new beginning

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For 

last-year's-words

belong to

last year's language

And

next-year's-words

await

another voice

And

to make 

AN END

is

to make

A BEGINNING

T.S. Eliot

little gidding 

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last days of december 2013

looking forward to a new year

wishing you all

a wonderful start 

of the new year .

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Christmas

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From

HOME

to home

and

HEART to HEART

FROM ONE PLACE

to another

the WARMTH and JOY of

C H R I S T M A S 

brings

us

closer

TO EACH OTHER

Emily matthews

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Clear and bright

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Sometimes

It's all clear 

and I can see 

WHAT...WHY.....BECAUSE.....

I love those moments

I love CLEAR and BRIGHT 

My life is confusing these days

In a good way

Old habits have to make place

for new ones.

I must confess

I am NO HERO in this part.

But I have to admit

When I do ..... Let go ....

I am SURPRISED 

by the new things that are waiting

to come into my new life ......

It's like 

A SURPRISE-PARTY

Most of us do not like such events

But when it happend .....

We cannot believe how wonderful it was.

Letting go the control

And be open for new experiences

I want to learn this

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to be .... to be...... to be......

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it's where we go,

and what we do when we get there,

that tells us

who we are .


Joyce Carol Oates

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To be in the moment 
without the past
without the future

just BE
and than ....take some along 
use it like magic glitter
and share that special feeling

just BE



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*memories*

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Our hearts

grow tender

with childhood memories

and LOVE of kindred

and we are better

throughout the year 

for having ,

in spirit,

become a child again

at 

CHRISTMAS-TIME

Laura Ingalls Wilder

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Off. to GREAT places

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This is my

Granddaugther 

E V A

in february 2011

She is such a JOY

in MY life

and in my family.

She is my motivation 

to practice and do my best

with my new hip .

I am looking forward

to so many wonderful 

times 

ATTENTION

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My fysiotherapist

teaches me 

not only what exercises I have to do 

He listens to me and shows me

the importance

of ATTENTION .......

Slow down

 and start at the beginning ...

listening to my body 

What do I feel 

Where do I feel 

and THAT is 

not as easy as it sounds ...

so I am learning 

each and every day

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It's allright

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Surprises

I love them .

I mean the surprise-presents

The other surprises

Like the things that happen

to you and you did not expect it

and you also do not like it 

Those surprises are coming

and going too of course .

Lately 

I try to treat them the same

So ..... When something unexpected is happening

and I do not like it at all 

I try to look at it 

as if it was a SURPRISE-GIFT 

wrapped in beautiful paper and

making me smile .

And than I wonder what 

the meaning of this-happening could be ....

You see 

with my first reaction 

the-not-like-reaction

I immediately give it NO chance at all.

With my new reaction

I leave things open 

and 

I get surprised

BEFORE my new hip

There was so much I did not like

but it felt like I had NO choice

AFTER my new hip

things changed 

I got my happy-JOY-thinking back

So 

Surprises

Let them come

I love them 

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courage

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The joy inside me

is waiting 

I am/was waiting

WHY was nothing happening

I have my new hip 

I no longer am in pain .....YEAH

Okay I have to be patience

BUT

Please can something happen

Please can someone come and visit me

Please can the phone ring 

I was waiting .......

and than it hit me

WHAT was I doing ?

Why was I waiting ?

Where was I ....ME......MYSELF 

I can be the one 

to ask or invite or phone ...

My life is changing

and I can be the director 

Oh my..........

It has been so long

I have to learn that all over again

My life turned

from no no no and more no

into YES YES YES 

I can 

and I ...... need some courage

that's okay 

*S*H*A*R*I*N*G*

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SURPRISE

SURPRISE

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one of the many surprises

that came to me

since I have my new hip was

THIS NEW FRIEND 

a new mouse

from Maileg 

Given to me by 

LIEVE LIA VAN HOUSE OF SEASONS

You have to visit her blog

and above all you should visit her

*S*H*O*P*

She is a very bright personality

and I cannot wait 

to visit her and her shop 

myself again 

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My life is different now

I can think about the future 

and enjoy all the things

I will be doing in the future

My little new mouse-friend

is a messenger to me 

life is waiting

and will be 

ABSOLUTELY

AMAZINGLY

SURPRISING

WONDERFUL

Thank you Lia

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I feel like .........

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I feel like an artist 

my new life WITHOUT the pain

feels so beautiful and amazing

I feel like an artist 

who looks around in her life

and sees all the beautiful colors

I feel like a poet

and catch beautiful words and sentences

all new again

I feel like a child

and cannot wait to discover

all I feel I can do 

I feel like ME

I look around and cannot believe

all this is mine 

It feels like I have been 

on a mission

and now returned HOME

Round and round

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TWO WEEKS

for two weeks

I am HOME now

WITH MY NEW HIP

I know

You know by now !

but to me it is 

a miracle

every day 

So

me and my new hip

we are adjusting

We are the best of friends

that's for sure

A very special friend

because my new hip

Is very patience

and guiding me

into this wonderful new life

Teaching me

to focus

to be in the moment

to own my body

to feel what I am doing

So

I supposed

I had to do excersises

Three times a day

And that was that

Well

NO

I had NO idea what I was doing

Where I was supposed

to feel something

and where NOT.

I had to learn 

to focus

and had to make

a lot of steps

backwards

I was going much to fast

I feel such a drive

But I have to be patience

Just focus on 

round and round

And above all

ENJOYING

my new life 

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DIVINE

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After three years 

of pain , pain more pain

pain all the time 

I turned into some 

stranger 

and

now

after the surgery

and my new hip

I feel like 

I am born all over again

a new life 

a new chance

I feel like dancing and singing

and I cannot wait 

to live my life to the most

but

I have to be patience

I have the own my body

all over again

and honnor it 

take care of it 

do my excersises 

and be aware 

be still

be happy

be grateful 

and believe me 

I am so so HAPPY

Twinklings

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LOVE

Little things

hanging on golden yarns

LOVE

to look at it

and see the slight moving

LOVE

how the light falls on it

or how the little twinkling sound

sometimes surprises me.

Little signs

of happiness

of friendship

of beauty

all very ME

Today I am gathering

some little things

planning to make something

To make my day 

HAPPY 

with my new hip 

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Gratitude

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Life-changing

BEFORE

and

AFTER

Each new day

Is a perfect GIFT

since I got my new HIP 

I am so so so happy 

For 10 days

I am blessed with 

this new part of my body

and the never-ending pain

from my old hip

is disappeared .

After years of pain 

I complete forgot how that feels .

Okay I have to practice

with my new friend

But we are getting along very well.

The experience

of being able

to stand straight

gives such a whole other 

look at life

There is a complete

inner peace

and so much 

GRATITUDE

I am surrounded with

So much LOVE 

from my children

my family

my friends

and neighbours

it is almost 

to much sometimes

so much LOVE

Thank you all for being here

and be there for me

I am learning to blog

on my IPad

some things are different

but HEY I love my new life

and I will learn 

HAPPY SUNDAY

to all 

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Miracles

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Overwhelming

Has been my word

For the past week .

IT started 

on my birthday 

november 2

my children gave me

an IPad 

I was over the moon

And than 

november 5

I had the chance

of receiving a new hip

Tuesday in the hospital 

Friday I was allowed to go home.

Let I say 

That is quite an experience

One thing I new for sure

THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME

My children cleaned the whole house

Every inch 

Bright and shiny 

I could feel the clean and fresh energy

My new start

Was blessed

So blessed

IT feels like

I am making a whole new start 

The first days 

I was very emotional

All the love and the gifts

and the mail

and the surprises

IT almost was TOO MUCH

to take in 

I am doing

GREAT

and now learning

to use my IPad 

for blogging too.

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* * * Blessings * * *

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Respect 

is love

The heart 

is also love

and so are you 

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My world is filled with graceful love

my path is broad and gentle.

Ours is a journey of shared hearts.

I remind myself that I am

 blessed with friendship ,

gifted with acquaintances 

and associations

who travel with me .

Reminding myself 

always

that we are all traveling together.

I develop my individuality 

while welcoming the individuality of others.

As much as I yearn to be

truly seen and truly loved ,

I seek to see others truly 

and truly love them.

I offer to those I encounter 

a believing mirror.

I reflect back to them their dignity

their beauty

their potential and divine spark .

Treating all whom I encounter 

with respect and affection,

I allow my heart to be a vessel

for healing love.

Drawing on universal love 

to love through me,

I love freely and without fatigue.

I open my heart to actualizing grace

in each encounter.

I allow Spirit to encounter 

my interactions,

shaping them and leavening them 

to a richer bread.

I am nourished by Spirit 

and through Spirit .

I seek to bless and nourish others by 

expressing Spirit through me .

Julia Cameron .

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I have this book 

written by Julia Cameron 

PRAYERS TO THE GREAT CREATOR 

It is a beautiful book 

four in one volume

I fel in love with the book 

because of the LOOK 

It's a 635 pages book

and the paper looks kind of old ......

very beautiful

So ..... I picked it up and 

was surprised 

by what I saw inside ....

I never heard of 

Julia Cameron 

but I bought the book

July 2010

and I am so glad I did .

I refound it 

in my bookcase 

and was taken by the words

all over .

I read and than 

I muse ..... all day

several days 

I love to be inspired 

by beautiful words

from others 

the autumn-sun

is shining warm and beautiful 

and I am counting down

november 5 

my new hip !

happy autumn-days

to all of you 

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Time

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I know

 I have not been

blogging

 much .

Sometimes 

I need time

TIME

is a magical gift 

and as long as we have TIME

all is possible .

to me time is  healing 

it's like water streaming

amongst stones

 making all 

soft and shining 

and beautiful 

I feel an inner peace

I never had

I can see how

my life

has brought me here

and how I was able

to do and learn 

I now understand

how all had a meaning

and I can feel so blessed

and all of a sudden

my old pains

vanish in sparkles 

leaving a soft feeling

of autumnish colors ...

My (autumn) birthday

is coming soon

november 2

How I love novembers

and this time

november 5

I will never forget

A new gift

a new hip

a new future

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where it started ....my love for MUIZEN ( mice )

Typical Dutch Tradition

 Beschuit met muisjes

, (sugar coated aniseed )

 to celebrate the birth of a baby

. Pink muisjes for a baby girl, blue for a boy

Muisje = mouse

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When I had my first child
I became to be a mother 
and my life changed 
A LOT 

Before that 
I had been working as a 
kindergarten-teacher
in a Waldorf School .

I choose to be a 
stay-at-home mother .
and one day 
walking with my first-born
in the park
I met another mother 
also walking with her first-born
in that park
and we started talking
and
we became friends ...

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we had lots of coffee-and-play-dates
and than we were BOTH pregnant
from our second child 
at the same time 
We both had boys
and than we got girls 
and still when the years went by 
we stayed friends
and were creative stay-at-home-moms
and learned a lot
from each other .

Than I moved to another town
and a bigger house !
and we started sending MAIL 
LOTS OF MAIL 
MICE-MAIL 

and 

and we made 
and send
eachother mice-presents 

We had a third child 
not at the same time 
and I had a fourth .....

we still had coffee once and a while
and than I devorced
and a few years later she too...

the mail and the presents
were a joy in our friendship .

and still are 

and than

I got my first MAILEG mouse

in a box
from a very wonderful SHOP
by a bloggerfriend
LIA

and a new hobby started .....

she arrived too

and the one on the right !

and my first grandchild

was born 

and you know what

she loves the mice too 

and she is two years old now

and we play a lot
with my little friends

like this !

SHE CALLS ME 

OMA-MUIZEN 

HOW CUTE IS THAT !

so

now you know

about me and mice 

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have a wonderful OCTOBER

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